Hope For Cheyenne
I never expected to hear those words. I'm sure no one does. It's amazing how with just a few words your world can be so violently shaken. On January 13, 2017 I was given this horrible news. It's taken me some time to process everything, to let it sink in. So many feelings, so many emotions to process. Am I going to die? What about the kids? They can't lose their mom! I'm not ready to go! What do I do next? This is going to be so painful! I don't want to lose my hair. I don't want to lose my breasts. Oh my gosh, has it spread? I don't know if I can do this! Why did this happen?! Those are just some of the thoughts that race through my mind.
Thankfully I've been blessed with amazing family and friends, who speak such comfort and peace into my life. They truly have been so loving and supportive! I've started to see a light at the end of this tunnel. I've gained so much hope by reading stories of victory and triumph that other women in my position wear proudly, after beating Breast Cancer. I am going to beat this!!! That's the attitude I've decided I've GOT to keep throughout this whole process! I am going to live a long happy life! My chidren will have a mother who is hopeful, determined, strong, inspiring, and victorious!
I am determined to Kick Cancers Ass! This is, and I'm sure will continue to be, a very difficult and emotional process for me. Full of many tough decisions, that I never expected to be forced to make. It has been recommended that I have Chemotherapy and Radiation treatments. Until I myself was diagnosed with Cancer, I didn't realize how controversial these medical treatments are. This has lead me to also research many different holistic healing practices. I strongly believe in the power of our food, how it can give life and encourage and strengthen our bodies to heal, but it can also damage our bodies and aid in many illnesses and disease. After many discussions with my family, and some very deep soul searching, I have decided that what's best for me, is to go ahead with the doctors suggested treatment plan, in hopes of killing this cancer as quickly as possible, while also focusing on a very healthy life full of only vitamin enriched food, strengthening suppliments, and as active of a lifestyle as possible! I am putting all of my hope and trust in this plan for my life. In a couple of weeks I will start my chemotherapy treatments. This will take around 5 months to complete. During this time I will also be having lots of different tests and scans, that will ultimately create a surgery plan. As of now, we are planning on a double mastectomy, including lymph nodes. Further tests will show if we will go ahead and remove my ovaries as well. Followed by some radiation, and a year of treatment for the Her2 disease that I tested positive for. I look forward to spending the rest of my life, treating my body with kindness and love, excercising this new healthy lifestyle to prevent any future disease! It's going to be a long, hard, emotional road! And even though I've had some time to sit on this and weigh out all of my options, it still feels like it's happening so fast. As you can imagine, all of these things are very expensive! Insurance covers a lot... but not all! There will be times that I will not be able to work, and will most likely be very sick. Finances seem to always be an issue when you are raising 2 teenagers, but now more than ever, its become the main point of stress and fear for me. Monthly bills and expenses add up fast, treatments, and therapies on top of that... Whew, it's overwhelming! This is where YOU come in!! I am humbly asking all of my friends, family, and anyone else who feels an impression on their heart, to help me and my family through this hard time. Any size donation will help! We are so thankful for every single dollar. Please keep me in your prayers, I would be lying if I said that I wasn't scared. But I have HOPE!! I'm ready to gather up every ounce of strength that I have, and do whatever I can, to come out on the other side of this! Please also think of my children and send them as many loving thoughts as you can during this time.
I love and appriciate all of you!! I look forward to updating you during the entire process, and conquering this thing called Cancer!
Love and Light,
I've been finished with chemo for a couple of months now but am continuing with treating my Her2 disease every three weeks. I'll be doing this for about a year. After treatment I'm pretty tired but I don't have any of the symptoms attached to chemo. The hot flashes have been pretty bad and I've been gaining back some of the weight I lost during chemo. Hopefully maintaining a healthy diet and moderate exercise each day will keep me from gaining too much weight. My body is going through so much and it's fighting very hard. My hormones are changing and Im pretty much going through menopause at age 32...Lovely! LOL!
It looks like I'll be having my first surgery in about 3 weeks. It will include removal of my right breast and biopsy of my lymph nodes. If the nodes look clear of cancer then I may not need any radiation and I can go under again about 4 weeks later for the removal of my left breast and reconstruction. But if there are signs of cancer in my nodes still then they will be removed, I will for sure get radiation, and I will not be able to get the left breast removed and reconstruction started until about a year later. Main concern with getting my lymph nodes removed is possibly developing Lymphedema. Which of corse I really don't want!
Its been a pretty emotional journey! On top of how painful and unpleasant chemo was, losing my hair, gaining weight, and now saying getting both of my breasts removed is very difficult! I know that reconstruction will help, but I also know that everything is going to be a lot different looking and feeling from here on out. I have days here and there where I honestly get pretty depressed and cry a lot. But for the most part, I'm very proud of myself for how I have handled it all and how positive I have been! I don't know how it would have been possible with out my partner, my family, and my friends. Their love is what's carried me through!
I'm pretty nervous for my surgeries and reconstruction. It's a lot to go through both physically and mentally. But I know there is a light at the end of this tunnel, and someday soon I will be able to celebrate being cancer free!
Love and support through your donations means so much to my family and me! It's going to be a while before I can get on my feet and start working again. Please know that any donation big or small is greatly appreciated! We can use all the help we can get right now!
Thank you in advance for your continued love!