Help me WALK again.
After enjoying a night out with friends in Philadelphia , Christmas week 2011, I hailed a taxi to go home. That was my last recollection before suffering an attack where I was left for dead in a city alley. Many facts are unknown but investigators determined that I was most likely struck across the back with a heavy, blunt piece of metal three different times blindly from behind, causing various injuries to my body and spinal cord. Soon after I was found on train tracks with further severe injuries from the fall and damage from the train hitting me. The police investigated but were unable to find the attacker(s) or any other information as to the accident.
Everyone always hears of tragic accidents but no one ever expects they will be the victim. The reality that I was a victim became known to me as I drifted in and out of consciousness in the trauma unit with doctors over my body , tubes and wires, and a priest at my side. It did not become clear what had happened until the priest spoke with me, and I realized I could not move anything below shoulders from paralysis. Emergency surgery awaited me as I was facing the rest of my life in a wheelchair with a 10% chance of recovery to walk. I knew this would be the greatest fight of my life.
I spent 6 grueling months in Trauma, ICU, step-down units, and at a rehabilitation hospital - filled with struggle, frustration, anger, support, love, and the thought of never walking again. I was released home and it is then that I realized that without the help of full time nurses and doctors at my side my real fight would begin. My first weekend home was both sweet and bitter, I knew it was going to be incredibly tough and take every ounce of my mental, physical and spiritual strength to get through this injury. But I would beat it.
These physical, psychological, and emotional elements in and of themselves are daunting, scary, and overwhelming; but they are only part of the battle. The other critical part is the cost of care to treat my injury and recovery. The hospital and rehabilitation costs were just the beginning of a long, arduous process of dealing with insurance to cover and continue to pay for therapy that is essential to my walking again. It is estimated that the cost of the first year's care to treat a Quad spinal injury at one million dollars, $1,000,000. Subsequent years can cost on average $175,000.
Five days a week I am in Physical Therapy, both at an out-patient facility and home. My schedule is relentlessly tough and I give no breaks to myself no matter how much pain I am in or how easy it is to skip my exercises, weights, standing frame, stimulation bike, stretching, or other treatments. Now, 28 months since my injury, 21 months into therapy, I am able to move both my legs on my own (right stronger at present - but left will catch up), proving to myself and to the amazement of doctors that a full recovery is possible with the right support, love, and hard work. To date I have worked relentlessly to recover 75% of what the accident took away.
Until now I have relied on insurance and immediate family for help. I have hit many of the maximum limits with insurance. The personal funds I had available to pay these costs have been depleted. I am humbly asking for your generous donation to help with medical and related expenses such as: continued medical treatment, aqua rehab, exercise equipment, home healthcare, and hospital and doctors fees. Your donation, no matter how big or small, will be greatly appreciated to defray these costs. My goal is to raise $40,000, biggest components are a stimulation bike which costs $16,800, and to pay for further Locomotor Training (see video w treadmill) sessions which cost $400/hour 3 times a week.
Today I am a changed man physically, mentally and spiritually. This accident has been the greatest gift in disguise, replete with lessons on life that forever have made me a better person. With your help I also will become a changed man. With your donations, my guts and determination, the support and love of family and friends, and through prayer, I will walk again.
Each week I will provide update(s) on my recovery and what changes have occurred as a result of your donations - until I post a picture of myself completing a 5K race. Thank you!!!
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- I am now standing, my legs are weak, but the muscles are functioning and in time will work better together, get stronger, so can begin motor training of walking = vertical = walker. This week I started doing exercises on the Parallel Bars. It is HUGE, another game changer, and one step close to walking. See three attached pictures.
- My book is coming along well, and expected to be published in summer 2017. One possible title: “Oh Shit! Now What!? What to do after you wake up from a trauma.” The book will be meant to serve as a Self-Help Guide Book to those who wake up after a trauma and have no understanding of what to do next. It is a book meant for all, grammar to PhD, many are unaware of what to do, or how. I will attempt to help get them on a path of healing once out of the hospital, when the real work begins.
- I will attend UPenn in 2017.
- Also in 2017 I will be starting a new company with a partner from childhood. After five years of healing I have learned a few things I would like to share with others. My partner has a science background, post doc HMS, together we hope to create a health related company to help others heal. We both are very excited and looking forward to getting started by summer of 2017.
I still have a long road ahead of me. Legs training by no means will be a walk in the park – pun so intended. Please keep the support coming, and prayers flowing – much needed and super appreciated. I am fully aware and extremely thankful each day as I cannot do any of my recovery without the love and support of others. So on this Christmas Holiday I say a BIG and HUGE THANK YOU to my supporters. After five years I can celebrate Christmas again with a big smile on my face, with dreams of dancing by the fire. I hope this news makes all your smiles a bit brighter this beautiful day. Thank you!!! Steven
Merry Christmas & Happy New Year 2017!
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As the mercury deepens and the coats pile on it is a time to be Merry, more importantly, also a time to be thankful. I am incredible thankful to my body for its results. Thanks must be given to my mind, soul and subconscious – for that is truly where the change happens. Getting to my goal of walking is no mistake. It is a collective joint-effort, we are all one, a shared conscious, we heal together. I am immensely thankful to all those who have helped me get to this point. And in 2017 I will start to pay it forward by helping others to get on the road to their own recovery, heal.
As my lower core is now in full on recovery mode that also means it is time for shoulder and neck pain again. Those muscles are the compensation group to make up for the lack of lower core as it heals. The bowel and bladder phase (been many of them) is coming to the tail end of an eight week reign of terror on my life. Funny too after my first day back to physical therapy when driving home I had three separate incidents, one almost making me have an accident as there was no place on the highway to pull over. I smiled and drove on. Such is the life of the road less traveled. Such it is when healing.
As I was unable to leave my home for some weeks I could not get to my outside physical therapy. I was a prisoner in my own home, unable to even go get milk and bread. There were many choices when it came to picking a new PT team. In the end I decided to go back to simple anatomy. Often in life, on projects or what have you, we get too caught up in the details. And though I have a better understanding of the body than most in medicine, how it operates, and heals, I, too, got caught up in things that were more a matter of throwing sh!t against a wall and hoping some stuck, whereas now I am getting back to the foundational key areas that allow one to build from: covering the basics.
Speaking on change, as the seasons change, Winter solstice is upon us (we start adding light back to our days), great change has also come about in me, myriad of ways. There is a native expression I love dearly: you get what you need, and need what you get. As much as no one ever wishes to be hit by a train, or someone else be struck by one, I got what I needed. I did not know it at the time. It is all part of the lessons I have learned, and continue to learn, which I hope to expand upon in the coming year through a book and other means to help others to heal. Just today it is my five (5) year anniversary of my accident. I am now 88% recovered, and soon will fully stand and start learning the motor to walk. It has been an amazing journey, one I never could have imagined, but certainly needed. I am a better person in every way as a result, and in 2017 I will rise again after five years in the ashes. Thank you for taking this journey with me. And thank you for your continued love and support! Happy Holidays! Steven
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Recently I reported my lower core was starting to recover. It has moved into full fledge kick my ass mode. Imagine making the lower half of your core a wet noodle – that is what it feels like after working out enough to tire that section. The top half of my body will just fall over as a wet noodle folds. It has made it hard to breathe and operate daily. Add into the mix my continued healing in bowel and bladder regions and you would not want to leave the house either – been four weeks since I have left my home.
Which brings me to another hellish healing – my bowel and bladder. I am not even sure how to cover this part without humor. What else can I say, when I am not pissing myself I am unsure if a fart is really a fart. Anyone up for a dinner and movie date with me this weekend? All the muscles are recovering, along with the nerves. It is a painful process, unimaginable to me, as I have a long list of pains, and not just from this accident. I have encountered many more death defying circumstances in my life. Though none to date have been able to beat a train – choo-choo!
All this also increases any anxiety I already had, multiplying it to uncomfortable levels. However, for those in the spinal know, one cannot walk without these areas recovered, for they are also part of the system that controls your feet and ankles – standing, walking, running. See me at the end of the Broad Street one day for an update on sacral sparing and energy healing at work.
As of fifteen minutes ago I have double my standing time to 88 seconds, and can sit down with back unassisted for four (4) minutes. My legs are so close to standing full time, soon. Funny too as I can no longer take steps. The injury moves in an organic fashion, unlike the Newtonian model they teach in medical school, and the basis of the current Physical Therapy system. The body and universe follow the Quantum Physics model we now know. Sadly most of the PT community does not follow this model. In 2017 I will attempt to solve this issue on many fronts. All with the intention to help others heal, across multiple modalities. Stay tuned as those who know me can attest I always deliver.
All which brings me to my decision to go back to school in 2017. I have narrowed down my choices to two programs at a local university. The choice involves many factors, some of which have yet to come to light. In the end, again, the intention and goal is to further my education for the betterment of others. This will come in many forms but all guided toward paying it forward to society. I suspect you will quite enjoy what is to come in 2017. After five years meddling in the ashes, it is time for this Phoenix to rise.
Each and every day I meditate. Most days my prayers take the form of a one hour thank you session. After almost five years I am close to my goal – a few more steps to go, pun intended. We all face our destiny at some point, when the bigger questions can no longer be avoided. It is not the accident or tragedy that defines us, it is how we react. I have not taken this journey alone – and as we are all one, a shared conscious, we all partake in the tears as well the cheers. Well, I need a little more cheer this Holiday Season. When we help others we help ourselves, humanity as a whole. None of it can be done without the love and support of you, my team, so today, on this day of off the charts pain and discomfort, I say to you: I am so grateful for being given the chance to heal, become a new man, as I make plans to start giving back society in 2017, thank you from my heart to yours! Thank you! Steven
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Almost eighteen months ago I started to stand. At the start it was confusing as I was standing more so from having my muscles locked in extension, whereas of late it is increased volitional control of my muscles. Then it was more so white knuckling, now it is much more painful. All the muscles in my legs are firing now – some under my control and some not. They will come together in time. These days my life is again measured in seconds, each one earned through sheer dedication and an oppressively incessant will to succeed. There is much else that goes into the healing, not just the machines, rather: energy healing. This past week I was tested and was able to stand for fifty (50) seconds, with minimal assistance from walker, all the focus on control of leg muscles. I have a hard road ahead of me :)
My lower core muscle group has finally unlocked and began to shake, rattle and roll. Though most days after a hard work out I feel more like a piece of spaghetti. Or some days those muscles just give out and I fall in the direction I am pointing. This is what was holding up my legs from the next phase: standing full time so can start learning the motor skill of walking again. That will then bring me base camp four (4). All the pieces are coming together, my next big step is to stand, stand, stand – pun intended. This past week I was able to sit, without back support, straight up for 2:46. I am healing, I am thankful.
As you all know I look at the body as a puzzle, but only once the pieces have been identified. There is so much that goes into healing, as most of us are aware through personal experience or watching others. It is not just the machines that a Physical Therapy building can provide. Endless other factors play a role in our recoveries yet the current system fails abysmally at that test, where most fall through the cracks, sent home as a number once their insurance is out or wallet dry. It is not an inclusive system that takes into consideration the myriad of other factors that determine how a person heals. Machines, prescriptions, endless will, hard work, etc – are all not enough to do it. It is so much more than that, and begs the question how do we heal, and what can each of us do to heal injuries to our bodies. My intention is to bring to light the role energy psychology and treatments play in healing our bodies.
The current book I am writing is more so a guide on how to best prepare and get through your Oh shit, now what, trauma moment. It will help you navigate the high seas of getting through a massive trauma. The second book will focus more on the psychology behind healing, namely: the role of energy psychology and treatments in healing our bodies. This research will begin with my PhD, should I choose the academic route as a means to my end. There is so much yet unanswered. I will report back as things develop.
I recently took a break from social media to write. Please feel free to share my story on your social networks. The link is: https://www.gofundme.com/StepUpForSteven
The constant costs of therapy and recovery never cease to stop, insurance does not get far at all, and then it is cash payment. I am extremely grateful to those who continue to help me through my recovery. I never lose site of the fact that it is others who are helping me through this recovery – to the betterment of all. Weekly I receive letters and notes and requests from all over the world, most asking for me to inspire them or someone they know to help them get through their injury. I find great joy and satisfaction in helping others. It is a new role for me that I am growing into, and would expect to expand upon greatly in the future. It is a role I look forward to paying forward to those who cross my path. Thank you for your continuous care and support, I cannot make it up the Rocky stairs without your love. I am healing, I am thankful. Steven
Hey Steven, I hope you're doing good, I wanted to thank you and share some extremely exciting news, because of you I worked harder than I ever have on my writings, found a producer and am going into production on the Blue Ridge Massacre in June, check it out on IMDB
Steven, you are so in my prayers and I am routing for you every time I read one of your updates, I am reminded of how powerful the human spirit is. How self-healing the body can be if we dedicate ourselves to it. Keep going! Sending you all my love.
Hi Steven, Sorry to learn of this. I wrote you a while ago on Facebook. Let me know if you'd like a visitor. Sincerely, Kelly
Bare feet in the grass activates different areas
Steven, I had no idea of your struggles. Stay strong. A healthy mind can compensate for any physical shortcomings. God bless buddy, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Merry Christmas buddy. Mark
With god all things are possible.
You will walk again and dance the night away once more :) ox you remain in my prayers!!!
YOu have are support & Prayers Cuz.. we love you