Fighting Non Hodgkins Lymphoma

Hey friends,


My name is Julie Leff, 25 years old, and recently diagnosed with cancer. Non Hodgkin primary mediastinal lymphoma b cell to be exact. It’s been a shock for me. It’s been a shock to my family, my friends. never would i have thought to be the person having to go through something like this.


Just before I was diagnosed I moved to Colorado by myself to start a new chapter in my life. But unfortunately I had to move back home to New York for treatments and to be with my family. Of course I can’t work, my mom has been at home helping me and taking off work, and there is little to no income at the moment. We are using all the savings we have to pay for medical bills, copays, rent and general living costs. 


I want to be able to come out of this by being the strongest and best possible version of myself but I need a little assistance financially. I appreciate you all and any help you are able to offer. I feel so supported and loved by everyone around me and so grateful to be here to experience this love. 
so thank you for reading this. I may just be another person with cancer, but I promise you that when I am healthy again, I will use this life to do incredible things and rise to become that person I always thought to become. I now know waiting for the right time is no longer is an option. waiting to become that person i always wanted to be isnt worth the wait because hey, you might die tomorrow. hell, you might be diagnosed with a deadly illness right? so I want to overcome this thing and step into my power once and for all. I hope you can help me get there. 


I put my thoughts into alignment and decided to write a little letter to cancer:


Dear cancer 
Why'd you choose me? I'm not mad at you. I surrender to you and trust youll take me where I need to be. Just know that I will not allow myself to identify with you. You are you and I am me.

Dear cancer,
Its weird knowing your inside my body. I know exactly where you stay. I often forget about you but you never fail to remind me of your presence. What even are you? For the time we do spend together, please let it be to better me as a whole. I know God put you there for a reason, I dont know why just yet. 

Dear Cancer,
Im doing my best to continue my normal routine. It's not easy to act 'normal' around people knowing they have no idea about you. I dont mind having you here for the short stay, but please let me feel like I'm back in my own body soon. When I breathe I can feel you. When I try and forget about you, you seem to find a way back in. I will no longer try and resist you. I surrender to you. 

Dear cancer,
Its weird, I'm not scared of you. I never thought those words would come out of my mouth. I know youre here to guide me on some new journey, and I'm sort of excited to see where that may be. What do you have in store for me? I know it will be something good. 

Dear Cancer,
Show me what you got. 


thank you. 
with love,
Julie