ZEEK SHEPSKY GOFUNDME
Donation protected
I need money to pay off my debts.
I know, I know... get a job and pay it myself. I have been actually.
A few key notes to remember before reading this:
-I have 1 dog and myself to take care of and alot of the rooms for rent on roomates.com and facebook anywhere online don't want dogs
-I didn't have phone or phone plan to put down on resumes in 2019
-I have 3 herniated discs that prevent me from doing physical work sometimes
-I have a degree in Electrical Engineering from ASU
-My Real Name is Jesus Olivares
-I didn't sleep on a bed or couch over half of 2019
-I didn't have an address when applying to jobs in 2019
The Story Begins:
October 2018:
My grandfather passed away in New Mexico and my foot was shattered 2 months before this from cliff diving. I had just broken up with my boyfriend of 3 years. I was now sad and physically hurt now. I worked at General Motors as a software Engineer and was very stressed.
Nov 2018:
I broke the lease on my apartment for 4000$ but only could pay partial amount. I left because of a break up and we were splitting rent. This went on my credit score and went to debt collectors eventually.
Dec 2018: I moved into the gayborhood to finally be myself and start a new life because I wanted to be myself and stop hiding being gay in public. I moved out on my recently broken foot from a 2 story apartment all on my own to save money.
2019 Feb:
I got laid off from my software engineering job at General Motors after 5 years. I knew i couldn't afford my gayborhood apartment anymore and i broke the lease for 4500$. I obviously couldn't afford that so I asked for a payment plan. In the meantime I threw away everything i owned because I couldn't afford storing it all month to month. This hurt the most because I could only store what could fit in my car which was a chevy cruze (compact car). The things i regret throwing away were my dogs ashes, poems to him, my furniture, my bed, my clothes, my food, years of memories and misc items you collect over a lifetime. All of it... Gone forever... I got really depressed. However I applied and applied to as many engineering and minimum wage jobs as possible. I couldn't even apply for unemployment because of the way my work "LAID US ALL OFF". Fired... The hard part was they needed a phone # and Address which I wouldn't have come march.
2019: March
My credit was bad and Apartments wouldn't accept my applications to move in until i paid off the ~$5000+
So i moved into my ex's dads house where we coincided even though we were not on good terms.
I got tired of my ex again and drove to San Diego from Tucson Arizona with my Dog and all my belonging tied to the roof.
Everything fell off the car on the way to San Diego and I was in wet clothes relaxing by the ocean, until i decided 4 hours after arriving and staring at the ocean to turn around and go back because I couldn't find anywhere to sleep but my driver seat. I couldn't do this to my dog and myself so i came back to Phoenix Arizona.
I got a free plane ticket from an undisclosed person to Texas furry fiesta and a cheap room offer from some new friends and I visited Dallas Texas at the end of march to try and clear my head.
2019: May
I still had some money trickling in from work but it wasn't adding up to over 5000$ for my apartment debt. At this point i put my loans on forbearance and my car on extensions for payments. I put my school loans on hold. I still was making my credit card payments but they were draining me at about 500 a month. I was paying my insurance and other things. I had one more vacation planned since july of 2018. I didn't spend a dime to go to this vacation. My roommates covered gas and RV payments. Phew. After it ended I came back to try and compile my life.
2019: June
I still didn't have a job, but I did have a few Engineering interviews that didn't accept me. I was applying to all jobs including Walmart, Mcdonalds, Sonic, Stores, etc.. but they wouldn't respond. I assumed its because my last job was an engineering job and that's the only job experience i had. I had a few tell me i was over qualified to work here. I overstayed my welcome with my sister and my ex so I went to live on Mt. Lemon mountain located in Tucson Arizona. It was over 100 degrees in arizona and i had nowhere else to sleep so I went camping as high I could at 7000 feet elevation.
2019: July
I still didn't have a job, but I had someone offer me a plane ride and ticket to a convention in Pittsburgh Pennsylvania. So naturally I accepted a free ticket. I had another friends mom pay for the room while we stayed in PA. His mom even bought us food. It was a fun time. However, I didn't forget about my no job and my accumulating debt. I fortunately had a job setup for August, so I waited for august to come around. In the mean time I was in between shelter and sleeping on couches and floors.
2019: August
I saved up enough money to pay off my apartment debt. I than applied to one more apartment complex. However we all know they will not accept people without a job. This apartment complex was ghetto and overlooked that part for me as long as i paid 1st months rent and move in fees. So I did. I finally had a place but I didn't make much money at discount tire. They worked everyone 7.5 hours a day without lunch breaks and in extreme heat. I never got to sit or eat or drink anything because of how busy they kept us churning out 2 cars every 15 minutes. I never previously explained this but I have 3 herniated discs in my back. I didn't care though because it was a job and I needed food and a roof over my head. They gave no benefits and didn't allow us over 39 hours to keep it that way. I made only 11$ an hour and that was before taxes, so each week I would work a labor job for 36 hour job on my feet with no food or water outside in 110 degree weather for less than 280$ a week.
September: 2019
I made rent luckily this month but couldn't afford food. I unfortunately also took in 2 other homeless acquaintances/roommates without jobs and they didn't have any food either. I however kept them fed as much as possible, but sometimes it was at the extent of me not eating for days. I was at rock bottom with bills piling up and people starving. I started to go stripping on mondays at a gay club in hopes i win the competition for up to 100$. The hard part was that i worked at 6am everyday and the competition was at 1am monday nights. I did what had to be done. My rent is 1000$+ and I couldn't make this on my own when i only made 280 a week sometimes less.
I naturally chose to pay rent over my car and other loans at one point. Because I simply just didn't have the money.
October: 2019
I noticed i wasn't going to be able to pay off my car a second month and hoped for the best. However, hoping wasn't helping so I found a better job. A call center job. I worked there from Halloween to thanksgiving where they had to fire me because I was being to nice to the customers when they had loans to pay off themselves. My other grandfater passed away almost exactly one year from my other grandfather. I was sad and depressed. But I kept looking for the better things in life. I couldn't afford to attend his funeral and i'm sure my family hates me because of it. However, i kept on moving along in life.
November 2019:
I didn't pay my car for a 3rd month and I worried repossession. So i talked to the bank and they told me they could extend my payment another 3 months. I was happy. I also found another job. They started me with no pay and I had to buy a suit jacket, tie, and dress shoes and pants in order to start. So with my hands forced I spent my last dollars at goodwill finding clothes. I started the job, but it had no hourly pay and was commission only. I started mid December because of interviews. It was a sales job where i had to use my own gas and drive city to city and business to business; door to door and sales office supplies. I did what i could but they didn't pay me anything since in their contract it says that if you don't sell over 300$ you don't get paid. So since i was new to this and it was not a well known business I didn't make any money in December. Christmas came around and I used my last dollars on Christmas presents for my 3 nieces and 4 sisters. I couldn't afford my mom or my dad a present. I couldn't afford alot this year. It was sad, but I was happy I could get the kids something instead of nothing.
January: 2020
I'm in the process of declaring bankruptcy. I started to drive for lyft and quit that sales job since they weren't paying me hourly and made me use up over 100's of dollars in gas and time driving to lake Havasu, Prescott, and Tucson without ever intending to pay for the trips. Lyft was great but throughout all of this I didn't make a dollar since before thanksgiving and spent my money trying to make money at this sales job in December... And than it happened...
January 15th 2019
I didn't have money for my car again and they repossessed it. They told me i had 3 months and i didn't receive any calls or letters in the mail or i would've sold everything to make that payment.
I don't like the scenario I'm in.
The biggest obstacles for me was depression and homelessness this year. That combination made it so hard to find jobs. I am asking as a furry entertainer to all the other furries out there. Please don't judge a book by its cover like me. It's been a rough year and I've always tried to entertain everyone and make others happy the majority of my life. I'm willing to do anything just to get some help. I've put my fursuit up for sale and everything i've acquired since August of 2019 up for sale on letgo and offer up phone apps. I'm desperately trying to get my car back so I have something left after 2019. I feel so defeated and cheated.
I talked to the lady at the bank and she said we never gave you the extension and because of that I lost my car this month. They want the full amount of 5500$ that was left out of my 23000$ i've paid them over the past 5 years. I'm at wits end. So if you can't donate could you please look at my letgo app and offer up and possibly buy something. I'm a really good person, but I had the roughest year of my life this year.
I know, I know... get a job and pay it myself. I have been actually.
A few key notes to remember before reading this:
-I have 1 dog and myself to take care of and alot of the rooms for rent on roomates.com and facebook anywhere online don't want dogs
-I didn't have phone or phone plan to put down on resumes in 2019
-I have 3 herniated discs that prevent me from doing physical work sometimes
-I have a degree in Electrical Engineering from ASU
-My Real Name is Jesus Olivares
-I didn't sleep on a bed or couch over half of 2019
-I didn't have an address when applying to jobs in 2019
The Story Begins:
October 2018:
My grandfather passed away in New Mexico and my foot was shattered 2 months before this from cliff diving. I had just broken up with my boyfriend of 3 years. I was now sad and physically hurt now. I worked at General Motors as a software Engineer and was very stressed.
Nov 2018:
I broke the lease on my apartment for 4000$ but only could pay partial amount. I left because of a break up and we were splitting rent. This went on my credit score and went to debt collectors eventually.
Dec 2018: I moved into the gayborhood to finally be myself and start a new life because I wanted to be myself and stop hiding being gay in public. I moved out on my recently broken foot from a 2 story apartment all on my own to save money.
2019 Feb:
I got laid off from my software engineering job at General Motors after 5 years. I knew i couldn't afford my gayborhood apartment anymore and i broke the lease for 4500$. I obviously couldn't afford that so I asked for a payment plan. In the meantime I threw away everything i owned because I couldn't afford storing it all month to month. This hurt the most because I could only store what could fit in my car which was a chevy cruze (compact car). The things i regret throwing away were my dogs ashes, poems to him, my furniture, my bed, my clothes, my food, years of memories and misc items you collect over a lifetime. All of it... Gone forever... I got really depressed. However I applied and applied to as many engineering and minimum wage jobs as possible. I couldn't even apply for unemployment because of the way my work "LAID US ALL OFF". Fired... The hard part was they needed a phone # and Address which I wouldn't have come march.
2019: March
My credit was bad and Apartments wouldn't accept my applications to move in until i paid off the ~$5000+
So i moved into my ex's dads house where we coincided even though we were not on good terms.
I got tired of my ex again and drove to San Diego from Tucson Arizona with my Dog and all my belonging tied to the roof.
Everything fell off the car on the way to San Diego and I was in wet clothes relaxing by the ocean, until i decided 4 hours after arriving and staring at the ocean to turn around and go back because I couldn't find anywhere to sleep but my driver seat. I couldn't do this to my dog and myself so i came back to Phoenix Arizona.
I got a free plane ticket from an undisclosed person to Texas furry fiesta and a cheap room offer from some new friends and I visited Dallas Texas at the end of march to try and clear my head.
2019: May
I still had some money trickling in from work but it wasn't adding up to over 5000$ for my apartment debt. At this point i put my loans on forbearance and my car on extensions for payments. I put my school loans on hold. I still was making my credit card payments but they were draining me at about 500 a month. I was paying my insurance and other things. I had one more vacation planned since july of 2018. I didn't spend a dime to go to this vacation. My roommates covered gas and RV payments. Phew. After it ended I came back to try and compile my life.
2019: June
I still didn't have a job, but I did have a few Engineering interviews that didn't accept me. I was applying to all jobs including Walmart, Mcdonalds, Sonic, Stores, etc.. but they wouldn't respond. I assumed its because my last job was an engineering job and that's the only job experience i had. I had a few tell me i was over qualified to work here. I overstayed my welcome with my sister and my ex so I went to live on Mt. Lemon mountain located in Tucson Arizona. It was over 100 degrees in arizona and i had nowhere else to sleep so I went camping as high I could at 7000 feet elevation.
2019: July
I still didn't have a job, but I had someone offer me a plane ride and ticket to a convention in Pittsburgh Pennsylvania. So naturally I accepted a free ticket. I had another friends mom pay for the room while we stayed in PA. His mom even bought us food. It was a fun time. However, I didn't forget about my no job and my accumulating debt. I fortunately had a job setup for August, so I waited for august to come around. In the mean time I was in between shelter and sleeping on couches and floors.
2019: August
I saved up enough money to pay off my apartment debt. I than applied to one more apartment complex. However we all know they will not accept people without a job. This apartment complex was ghetto and overlooked that part for me as long as i paid 1st months rent and move in fees. So I did. I finally had a place but I didn't make much money at discount tire. They worked everyone 7.5 hours a day without lunch breaks and in extreme heat. I never got to sit or eat or drink anything because of how busy they kept us churning out 2 cars every 15 minutes. I never previously explained this but I have 3 herniated discs in my back. I didn't care though because it was a job and I needed food and a roof over my head. They gave no benefits and didn't allow us over 39 hours to keep it that way. I made only 11$ an hour and that was before taxes, so each week I would work a labor job for 36 hour job on my feet with no food or water outside in 110 degree weather for less than 280$ a week.
September: 2019
I made rent luckily this month but couldn't afford food. I unfortunately also took in 2 other homeless acquaintances/roommates without jobs and they didn't have any food either. I however kept them fed as much as possible, but sometimes it was at the extent of me not eating for days. I was at rock bottom with bills piling up and people starving. I started to go stripping on mondays at a gay club in hopes i win the competition for up to 100$. The hard part was that i worked at 6am everyday and the competition was at 1am monday nights. I did what had to be done. My rent is 1000$+ and I couldn't make this on my own when i only made 280 a week sometimes less.
I naturally chose to pay rent over my car and other loans at one point. Because I simply just didn't have the money.
October: 2019
I noticed i wasn't going to be able to pay off my car a second month and hoped for the best. However, hoping wasn't helping so I found a better job. A call center job. I worked there from Halloween to thanksgiving where they had to fire me because I was being to nice to the customers when they had loans to pay off themselves. My other grandfater passed away almost exactly one year from my other grandfather. I was sad and depressed. But I kept looking for the better things in life. I couldn't afford to attend his funeral and i'm sure my family hates me because of it. However, i kept on moving along in life.
November 2019:
I didn't pay my car for a 3rd month and I worried repossession. So i talked to the bank and they told me they could extend my payment another 3 months. I was happy. I also found another job. They started me with no pay and I had to buy a suit jacket, tie, and dress shoes and pants in order to start. So with my hands forced I spent my last dollars at goodwill finding clothes. I started the job, but it had no hourly pay and was commission only. I started mid December because of interviews. It was a sales job where i had to use my own gas and drive city to city and business to business; door to door and sales office supplies. I did what i could but they didn't pay me anything since in their contract it says that if you don't sell over 300$ you don't get paid. So since i was new to this and it was not a well known business I didn't make any money in December. Christmas came around and I used my last dollars on Christmas presents for my 3 nieces and 4 sisters. I couldn't afford my mom or my dad a present. I couldn't afford alot this year. It was sad, but I was happy I could get the kids something instead of nothing.
January: 2020
I'm in the process of declaring bankruptcy. I started to drive for lyft and quit that sales job since they weren't paying me hourly and made me use up over 100's of dollars in gas and time driving to lake Havasu, Prescott, and Tucson without ever intending to pay for the trips. Lyft was great but throughout all of this I didn't make a dollar since before thanksgiving and spent my money trying to make money at this sales job in December... And than it happened...
January 15th 2019
I didn't have money for my car again and they repossessed it. They told me i had 3 months and i didn't receive any calls or letters in the mail or i would've sold everything to make that payment.
I don't like the scenario I'm in.
The biggest obstacles for me was depression and homelessness this year. That combination made it so hard to find jobs. I am asking as a furry entertainer to all the other furries out there. Please don't judge a book by its cover like me. It's been a rough year and I've always tried to entertain everyone and make others happy the majority of my life. I'm willing to do anything just to get some help. I've put my fursuit up for sale and everything i've acquired since August of 2019 up for sale on letgo and offer up phone apps. I'm desperately trying to get my car back so I have something left after 2019. I feel so defeated and cheated.
I talked to the lady at the bank and she said we never gave you the extension and because of that I lost my car this month. They want the full amount of 5500$ that was left out of my 23000$ i've paid them over the past 5 years. I'm at wits end. So if you can't donate could you please look at my letgo app and offer up and possibly buy something. I'm a really good person, but I had the roughest year of my life this year.
Organizer
JESUS OLIVARES
Organizer
Phoenix, AZ
