Help with Funeral expenses

After his little brother Sean age 12 died of lukememia my older son Jon became depressed turned to drugs. I tried so hard to help him recover but failed. He overdosed earlier this year and died too. I am devastated, lost and broken. I do not know what to do or how to cope with the sadness the loneliness and the hurt. Please, if you can, help me. I am seeking crowd funding to cover the death and burial expenses for my son Jon. I need your prayers for me and for him. I need you to talk to your kids about the dangers of drugs. I need someone to talk to me about how I go on. How do I look at myself and forgive myself. It is all just so over whelming. Please donate. Please.