Lydia's New Hope VS Medical Bills
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Hello, my name is Lydia and I am in need of help.
A few weeks ago, I tried to take my own life. I ODed on any medication I could find in my apartment and went to sleep that night hoping I wouldn't wake back up. I felt so trapped and alone with no way out and somehow I ended up believing that taking my life was the logical way out.
Thankfully, I had people who cared about me around me. With the help of friends, family, and my College, I agreed to be admitted to a behavioral health institute. There I was, in a space with other people who understood my story, my struggles, and, my trauma. On top of that, I was met with a kind staff that really cared about my wellbeing. I found myself opening up about things that I never really spoke about, I saw the power of my trauma start to subdue, and along the way, I found hope and rekindled my faith.
I'm currently a senior in college, majoring in Peace and Conflict Studies. I want to put my degree to good use! I want to help people with the knowledge I've gained, and be able to say that I have added value to someone's life. However, on top of being a college student, I'm also an international student from Ethiopia. My mom is already working so hard to make sure that my brother and I get a proper education, and pouring so much of the money she makes into us, that it is impossible to put this on her as well.
When my hospital bill came, I cried. It was a lot more than I expected. It was a lot more than we can afford. The hospital bill came back close to $25,000. This isn't the type of money I can just ask my mom to send, and considering that I am not allowed to work off-campus as an international student, it isn't the type of money I can make either. I'm not very good at asking for help, on small things or big ones, but in this case, I can see how much I need support from others. The bill came in 3 weeks after my hospitalization with a deadline set for a week later. So I am asking that you would please support me in any way possible.
While this incident in my life came as a shock for the people around me, for me it was a long time coming. I have a long history of trauma, and more dominantly sexual trauma that started at a young age, as young as two. In my conscious life, I have not known a day when I wasn't defined or affected by this. I've let it hold too much power over me, and let it define me too much as a person. Now with the new hope, I found...I want to grow into the great person I know I can be. I want to live my life for me, define my identity as my own rather than on what's been done to me or the people around me. I've forgiven others a long time ago but it's taking a really long time to learn to love and accept myself. Help me live through this new hope I have.
A few weeks ago, I tried to take my own life. I ODed on any medication I could find in my apartment and went to sleep that night hoping I wouldn't wake back up. I felt so trapped and alone with no way out and somehow I ended up believing that taking my life was the logical way out.
Thankfully, I had people who cared about me around me. With the help of friends, family, and my College, I agreed to be admitted to a behavioral health institute. There I was, in a space with other people who understood my story, my struggles, and, my trauma. On top of that, I was met with a kind staff that really cared about my wellbeing. I found myself opening up about things that I never really spoke about, I saw the power of my trauma start to subdue, and along the way, I found hope and rekindled my faith.
I'm currently a senior in college, majoring in Peace and Conflict Studies. I want to put my degree to good use! I want to help people with the knowledge I've gained, and be able to say that I have added value to someone's life. However, on top of being a college student, I'm also an international student from Ethiopia. My mom is already working so hard to make sure that my brother and I get a proper education, and pouring so much of the money she makes into us, that it is impossible to put this on her as well.
When my hospital bill came, I cried. It was a lot more than I expected. It was a lot more than we can afford. The hospital bill came back close to $25,000. This isn't the type of money I can just ask my mom to send, and considering that I am not allowed to work off-campus as an international student, it isn't the type of money I can make either. I'm not very good at asking for help, on small things or big ones, but in this case, I can see how much I need support from others. The bill came in 3 weeks after my hospitalization with a deadline set for a week later. So I am asking that you would please support me in any way possible.
While this incident in my life came as a shock for the people around me, for me it was a long time coming. I have a long history of trauma, and more dominantly sexual trauma that started at a young age, as young as two. In my conscious life, I have not known a day when I wasn't defined or affected by this. I've let it hold too much power over me, and let it define me too much as a person. Now with the new hope, I found...I want to grow into the great person I know I can be. I want to live my life for me, define my identity as my own rather than on what's been done to me or the people around me. I've forgiven others a long time ago but it's taking a really long time to learn to love and accept myself. Help me live through this new hope I have.
Organizer
Lydia Tamrat
Organizer
Mechanicsburg, PA
