War Refugee - Urgent need to move

I do not like asking for help, but it appears that being a war refugee surrounded by people who exploit your situation and refuse to understand is beyond my capability of handling this. Please, spare a minute of your time to read.

My name is Ana, you might know me by the name of Deia Stormborn, a Dragon Vtuber. I have fled Ukraine over a year ago. Since then, I had to switch places 9 times, and I still can’t find a roof to settle.

I am currently in the Netherlands living with the family that completely refuses to understand that finding a new place with the help of the Government might take months, same with finding a job in the Netherlands. They do not want to give me time, and practically tell me to go back to my city, which is currently an active warzone. I do not want to say any bad things, but they have not been treating me well at all. I am unable to work my current job in Ukraine in peace and cannot allow myself to grief the loss of my mother, which was only just a month ago, because the demands are too high and frequent.

They have never asked me to pay for the rent, but one and a half months later it suddenly appeared to be the problem, even though I offered them it before. They now refuse to accept the money, saying in that case I will have the right to stay. My current job is paying me 650 USD after taxes, which is not enough to cover the rent of basically any apartment that exists in this country.

I have a dog, it’s a Bernese Mountain dog. They do not want her in the house, despite, again, the fact that they knew the breed and knew what would come with it. It also complicates my situation with moving and finding a place, since many places do not want a large breed of dog here.

I have been living with constant stress, having panic attacks each day, and, because I was diagnosed with chronic depression, it heavily impacts my health. It got so much worse that I consistently think of taking my own life.

I cannot go back to Ukraine, and I cannot stay. I am on the edge of either ending up on the street, or being forced to give my dog away, which I simply cannot do. My dog is everything I have left, and I cannot lose her.

I am practically at a loss. The Government cannot speed up the process, and the only real solution would be to find a free apartment and rent it out until the Government can actually assist me.

I tried explaining things, I tried finding a compromise, I actively discussed with them my situation and the situation with the refugees as a whole. But they are either refusing to understand, or the language barrier is too strong for them to acknowledge my struggles.

They were even forcing me to sell my apartment in Ukraine, which I cannot do.

1. It’s signed on my mother AND me. My mother died over a month ago. There’s a lot of legal stuff and documents I need to work on because my mother didn’t leave any notes or letters behind. This can take months before I have a full ownership of the apartment.

2. My brother needs this apartment for the shelter.

3. It’s in a danger zone, selling it is a stupid idea because finding a person who will possibly agree to such a risk is nearly impossible. When we sold our grandmother’s apartment, it took 6 months, and that’s BEFORE war.

4. I need to pay to hire a realtor and such. I don’t have the money.

5. The apartment needs to be fully cleaned up. I don’t have the money to hire the team.

6. It’s the only thing I have left after my mother. I don’t have anything else because she had no possessions.

7. It’s the only thing that’s keeping me from being entirely homeless.

Additionally, they tried to accuse me in some strange criminal activity. When we were contacting the government for help, the woman on the phone simply mentioned that my situation is unusual, because, unlike many Ukrainians, I have sustained a job. They twisted it into some possible criminal activity, even though they were fully aware that I have a remote job and my company cares about me.

They also tried to accuse me of planning to illegally move my brother from Ukraine to the Netherlands, when I 1) never mentioned such a thing or even had it in my mind; 2) my brother serves the military and cannot leave; 3) my brother does not WANT to leave. I still, to this day, do not know where they have gotten this idea from.

I am here to ask for help. Any help. Just so I can rent an apartment and possibly pay for the rent for a couple of months before the Government reaches out to me and/or before I can find a job that would be sustainable enough to pay for the apartment. I do not need much, I want the smallest place possible, just as long as I can finally feel safe. I have not felt safe ever since the war started. I tried to be strong, but at this rate, I feel like I’m giving up. I cannot work, I cannot do the things I enjoy, I cannot live like a normal human, I have to frequently sacrifice my needs, even simply my need for food. Please, help me.

Everything that I will receive will strictly go to finding an apartment and paying for it. I do not know what I could give in return, so it is incredibly selfish of me to ask of you to do this. And, even though it sounds dramatic, I feel like it is the situation where my life highly depends on it.

If I will not find a place to stay, I will have to somehow, unfortunately, return back to Ukraine, which will require the same amount of money.

Thank you for taking your time to read.

If you need to reach out to me, my links:

https://twitter.com/deiastormborn

https://www.youtube.com/@deiastormborn/

My email:

[email redacted]

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UPDATE:

Heya. I received some news that I will most likely get an apartment here. I will go see it on Monday.

I hope it's 100% real, I still have some doubts cause I'm not used to receiving good news in the past year.

But, if it's true, every money donated will go for getting furniture and such things.

I'm so grateful for anyone who looked/helped/retweeted this post.

My hands are a bit shaking so I will say more on Monday lol.

Thank you all, really.

Once I receive, or, you know, actually see a proper confirmation with my own eyes, I will close the fundraiser.

If you would still like to help a little bit, so I can get neccessary things like, idk, bed and stove and such, I would be eternally grateful.

If the fundraiser will be closed before that, that is fine.

I felt so terrible asking for help, I'm partially glad it didn't go up to the point of needing the whole donation goal, jesus.

Thank you for your kind words as well, many people reached out to me in private.

Love you all.