Trying to get home

I don't even want to ask this. There has been a lot of death in my life time, and a lot of it happens 3000 miles away from me. Being that this is so sudden, and far, and after a holiday, plane far is not a feasible option for me. I just want to be home, with the support system I grew up with during this hard time. If I can't raise enough money to make this happen, I will refund everyone. Again, I loathe asking for help, I just don't know what else to do. I can't pay rent and come home.