Beating throat cancer

Alright, this is all strange to me. I've been hit by a BUS and now I'm living someone elses life. Tomorrow I'm gonna wake up and it'll all be back to the same ol' me being funny and crazy. Yet, I wake up, day after day, in this other person's body now (Sigh). I'm not very good at asking for help, I feel it shows weakness, and I even feel weak writing this out (in more ways than one). My mother initially made this, bless her heart but she got my story a bit wrong. Adenosquamous Carcinoma. It's hitting me, hard, and I haven't even started Chemo or RADIATION yet. I've already had surgery that dissected the left side of my neck to remove all lymph nodes, cauterized branches of my carotid artery, as well as a separate surgery to get into my throat and remove parts of my tongue, uvula, tonsil, and additional tissues. "Top 5 most painful surgeries" -the doc. My mentality takes it the most. The Cancer, the surgery and not being able to work, needing therapy in many aspects physical and mental has me out of it. Certain treatments that are supposed to help me through radiation are going to have to be paid out of pocket as they don't take my insurance.  I've already been building up my credit card trying to pay for odds and ends and bills, which doesn't include what my parent's are trying to contribute, buying me supplies, feeding me.  I want to be able to supply them with the funds to get me healthier options, especially once I start the really harsh treatments that will screw me up somethin ugly. I am scared about the Radiation. I'm not a big guy, losing this weight scares me. My tastes will be all screwed up and these out of pocket treatments help me get back my sense of taste afterwards and help with the mouth blisters and sores from radiation so eating won't be as painful/stressful. So if you can, Help me beat this cancer, REALLY beat it and make it never come back, and possibly get back to my feet easier. Thank you.