Help get us out of this environment

Quite often victims of domestic violence protect their abusers and stay quiet trying to protect their image. This is what I did for years with Grant. In July of 2019 I began seeking treatment for my issues around the violence and sought services for the children as well. He continued to abuse me financially by refusing to pay child support to me but rather the landlord , keeping me stuck in the home where I was abused. Over the summer we tried to move out and when I called him to let him know to pay it to me he refused and immediately contacted this landlord. I have been working closely with fair housing of Marin , legal aid of Marin , family law , and center for domestic peace. I am thrilled to say we got accepted into a three bedroom , but need a bit of help to manage the move. Things got a bit dicey lately with court costs when he most recently took me to court resulting in court fees and the court order to force the kids to do in person school though I had valid concerns ( August has asthma , new baby , behavioral concerns and my auto immune disease ) and despite a remote option being available . 

I don’t love  asking for help and am unable to utilize season of sharing funds because I used them within the last 5 years , we tried to do a work around by having Sebastian do it but because I am on the lease we cannot. I realize this year has been tough for all and we are not alone in this however without a bit of help I am unsure what will happen as we have given notice and are due to move. I am happy to provide further supporting documentation if you have additional questions.My fear is that my ex will further try to stop this , I have filed with the child support agency so if he fails to pay he will lose his license. 

I am done being a victim but rather a survivor. My kids need a stable safe environment to heal, as some of you know my big kid is now with me full time after years of nasty court battles . He was the first of us to experience physical violence by Grant , but back in 2016 I did not believe him , I thought there was no way , it took two years before it escalated for myself and twins. Obviously I have tremendous guilt around this but am working through that to be a better mama then I could be then. 

Anything helps , especially prayers. Xoxo 

Love , 

Christina & family