Push over the roadblock

I have been stuck at a never-ending plataeu overthinking rethinking and continued second guessing thoughts desires and reality I wish wasn't what it is but it is unavoidable or suppressablr trust me j have tried dismissing these underlying desired for as long as I can remember. This fundraiser is essentially to show me that there are people that care and are willing to help out and just the act of caring will help me with my debilitating crilloing anxiety and finally go through with the surgeries I need to help my dysphoria