Help me move away from my parents

Hi. Everyone that I send this to probably knows me and the situation I'm in but I'm going to elaborate on it anyway.

 

I'm Jay, TIK, etc, and I've been living with verbally [and sometimes physically] abusive parents my whole life. I'm Bi, have Aspergers & ADHD and they have never even once tried to understand what this means or how I deal with it.

 

All through my life they have been derogatory towards me, belittled me, made fun of me, and generally just made living here hell. They even charge 1/3rd of what I earn as 'rent', and then refuse to call it that when it suits them. They're flagrantly racist (privately and sometimes publically), have voted UKIP, mock transgender people whenever they see representation of them on TV (which they're always watching - they haven't worked in decades.)

 

They're also openly homophobic, and I don't need to tell you how this manifests now that they know that I'm Bi.

 

There are several recordings spread throughout the years of them screaming profanity at me whilst I was minding my own business - a staff recording for a Garry's Mod server in 2017, a few D&D games that were live-streamed from 2019-2021 come to immediate memory.

 

I now, at last, have at least a semi-stable job that I can begin again in earnest when UK lockdown ends (19th of July, here's hoping) and I will be able to afford the monthly rent for the place I'm looking into.

 

My problem arises, then, that I'm not sure if I'll still be able to get this place come that date. The housing market in the UK is bad. Really bad. This is the only viable place for me to move that I've seen in a long while, and I'm worried it won't still be here when I, myself, earn the money to get my deposit in and start living on my own, away from abuse and the source of all my anxiety.

 

The goal here is to get exactly enough for the deposit and one month's rent so that I'm secured for the foreseeable (at least near) future. I'm a private person by nature, and I really wasn't sure about making this, but I was urged by a friend to at least try.

 

This month finally convinced me that I need to move out. I only have £155 for the whole month, and my parents still took the exact same amount even though they knew it'd cripple me. They acted nice for a few days, until I'd paid them, and then it was an immediate (literally the next sentence) turn back to the abusive, hostile attitude they've always had.

 

To summarise this really waffle-y summary: (that's kind of an oxymoron, isn't it? Summarizing a summary?)

 

I need at least £565 to secure the deposit for a small studio apartment which is right around the corner from where I work.

 

I'll be able to afford rent as soon as I'm working again, which will be as soon as lockdown ends.

 

Living in my current house is, has been, and will be detrimental to both my mental and physical health. I'm not sure how much longer I can do this.

 

If I don't manage to get this apartment, I'm really not sure what I'm going to do.