Seth Howell and I met through bikes.
It started out with weekly rides along the paved trails that sit below the bench along the Wasatch front. Shortly after meeting, the leaves changed their colors and the snow began to ice the mountaintops, causing us boys to take to the higher elevations inside of American Fork Canyon, Utah.
On many occasions we would discuss the trials and triumphs of each others lives. Be it love, family, death and the like.
As winter grew darker and the days shorter we grew closer, seeing each other four or five times a week, for biking, music, rollerskating, talking, whatever the occasion might be. Before noticing Christmas had arrived, the year 2019 came to a close and 2020 came into her own.
Talks of a virus quickly spread throughout the world, consuming us all in her world changing fury.
Before anyone could see what was happening quarantining of individuals and families began to take place.
Seth Howell died on April 20th as the virus began to spread.
When I learned of his death my mind transformed.
I felt helpless.
I felt dark.
I felt the fleetingness of life, its juxtaposition of dark and light, here and gone.
As in other times of personal struggle I turned to writing things down, sometimes in journalistic rants, but mostly it would gush out in song form.
As soon as the songs starting taking shape I knew I wanted to make something for Seth, for the absolutely unknown struggle that he must have been enduring, in hopes of raising awareness, or money for those that are better versed in the physical, mental and psychological field of mental health and in particular suicide prevention.
"Forever In Life For Now " was made under the influence of Seth Howell
This campaign is to raise money for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (AFSP). 100% of the proceeds is directly donated to the cause.
I am not well versed in the ins and outs of crowd funding, I have never tried such a thing, but felt that through a medium like music that I could help contribute in some way to providing resource and support to those who struggle with thoughts of suicide.
Any donation above $35 will receive a copy of "Forever In Life For Now " Pressed on vinyl, including a 16 page booklet of all lyrics and credits on the "Forever In Life, For Now" album made in hopes of helping those in need of support and or help in this regard.
If you or anyone you know is struggling with thoughts of Suicide talk to someone, anyone. Reach out to a loved one and tell them how you feel.
Life is hard. Life is beautiful. Its the contrast between the two where we can find contentment.
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