Medical Funds for Back Surgery

This Came Out of Nowhere: I wasn't prediagnosed.  One day out of the blue, I wasn't able to stand up, sit down, or lie down without massive pain.  My dear friend took me to the hospital.  After five days in the hospital and no true answers, I was sent home.  I was told I had torn ligaments in my back and a bulging disk.  I told myself I can let my back heal and it will be fine. 

The Most Painful Year of My Life: I didn't realize that when I left the hospital, I was in for a year of constant pain and agony (mentally and physically).  Nothing took the pain away.  It didn't matter if I took meds, went to physical therapy, sat down, or even lied down, nothing stopped it.  There was some change with injections but they lasted only for a week or two.  I would work with minimal standing but being a teacher, it was near impossible.  I would press through the day at a cost to my body.  I would plow painfully through any task I had, only to find myself breaking down mentally and exhausting myself into bed trying to relieve this pain.

Please Forgive Me: I am sorry if I didn't come to the invites over the last year.  I really didn't share my nightmare with many people.  Going anywhere would take a mental preparation, as well as, a huge price in the end.  It truly amazes me how my mind keeps telling me that I am fine but when I go, my body quickly reminds me of its limitations.  I don't think you truly know how hard it is to live with this pain until you have had it.  I wouldn't wish it on anyone.  Please just know, I didn't go to the invites because of you...it was me. 

My Last Hope at Relief:  I am pushing to have surgery this summer because if I don't do something, I am going to be forced to go on disability.  I worked too hard for this to be the outcome.  I went to school with small children and worked my way through college.  

If the pain doesn't stop, I fear for my mental state.  I can't live this way.  I have hid my pain from many people hoping it would stop or change in time.  It isn't.  I need to make this last step; however, I cannot do it alone.  I have insurance but it the cost of co-pays, medications, and out of pocket deductables are too costly.  Not everything is covered with insurance and the bills are exceedingly over the top.  

You Can Help to Change Things for My Family: Will you help me get the surgery I need to get some quality of life back?  Your support will do so much to help us.  Any donation no matter the size, will make a difference.  You are making a choice to change our lives.  It is a great way to show my family how God moves through the hands of others.  Alone, this is too big but together, we can make it happen.  Thank you for your consideration and help.