Medical bills from a self-inflicted gunshot wound

I suffer from severe depression, anxiety and PTSD. I have attempted suicide multiple times in the past after my mother told me I should kill myself to make her happy when I was 11. This time I shot myself in the abdomen and bled internally for 2 hours until I was brought to the hospital. My hospital stay lasted a month and then I voluntarily went to inpatient because I had never had that kind of help before and I really felt like I was ready for it, that I needed it, and it would help me. I am trying to get myself into an outpatient facility at the moment while simultaneously seeking out the right therapist for myself. I hope that someday I don't feel this way and I aspire to help others who are in the same mental boat as me. Thank you so much for listening to my story and for helping me out! Much love! ❤
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