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Medical debt and Debt from mental health problems

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Hello, my name is Josh Buzzell, i have a fiance, Elizabeth, and our dog, Buddy. We live with Elizabeth's elderly parents, whom we watch and take care for.  In late September 2019 i developed a condition called serotonin withdrawal syndrome, which is the opposite of serotonin syndrome. This condition caused what my doctor called "brain zaps," which were debilitating and have caused long term affects thus far. We called them zaps because it felt like electricity was short-circuiting my brain, and once one of them happened I would sit there, expressionless, lifeless, staring into nothing for anywhere from a few seconds, to 15 or even 20 minutes. There was only one time where i came out of it and I didn't know where i was and got very scared, but then i passed out as if i had been sleeping. These brain zaps made my depression and anxiety extremely severe, and it gave me several flashbacks to past trauma i didn't know i had, that only made everything 100 times worse for me, and made me very emotionally unstable to the point where I was very suicidal and went to the hospital a couple of times. I was diagnosed with C-PTSD, Chronic Major Depressive Disorder, Chronic Anxiety Disorder, Dissociative Disorder, and OCD. Since then, I have been out of work, not without trying. I was hired at a supermarket in January, but i kept having panic attacks in just training. In May,  I was hired at a seed processing warehouse, but with Covid-19 causing anxiety on top of all my other anxieties, and living with 3 at risk people, it was best for my family to quarantine, especially since I got sick at the end of May and had to get tested for Covid-19. Since then, i have only gotten worse mental health wise. In fact, I get anxious doing the things i love, I get fits of anger over nothing at all, and I get panic attacks seemingly at random. I have also been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, which explains my severe and sometimes debilitating pain. Throughout this, I have been hurt a few times, needed x-rays multiple times, and with other health complications, I have racked up a lot of debt. And my fiance has been using her savings to support me and us, she has spent a significant amount of it to afford rent, bills, food, co-pays, and that doesn't even include her own medical bills.

I am asking for help, i can not support my family the way i want and need to. We are in the middle of remodeling the downstairs basement for her elderly father who has had several falls this year, he had spine surgery not that long ago as well, so as much income from everyone as possible has been going to that, and it has made it so Elizabeth is unable to support us the way she needs to, so my already growing debt is only going to be growing further. 

$15,000 would provide me enough relief to pay off all of my medical bills, debt from bills we can't pay, to hopefully finish the basement so her father can live comfortably without stairs which would provide much stress relief, especially considering he just had spinal surgery, it would help with food and household essentials.

I appreciate any and all support, I am just a young man who is going through an incredible amount of physical, mental, and emotional pain, and I ask for any help you may give. It's extremely hard for me to ask for help like this, I feel I should be able to support my family the way I need to, the way i want to, but currently I am physically and mentally incapable of doing that, and I feel like a failure, which doesn't help my mental health.

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Joshua Buzzell
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Palermo, ME

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