The Testosterone Factory Has Got to Go!
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My name is Luna Zelda Peacecroft. I'm a pre-op gender confirmation surgery trans woman suffering from gender dysphoria due to the physical reminder of what I was assigned at birth; the bottom portion of my body is not in congruence with who I am and that testosterone factory has to go!
For as long as I can remember I have never been the gender I was meant to be. While growing up I hid this behind a carefully crafted mask that many people believed, acting as the only gender my family would believe (accept), my assigned sex. This mask worked, some of the time. Those from my past who actually know me, who got behind the mask to SEE me and accept me, would be able to pinpoint the real me at different intervals throughout my life. Today I am finally able to be who I really am without masks but the distress of my gender dysphoria is a weight I wish to be rid of once and for all.
Dysphoria manifests differently from person to person. Since I started Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT) my dysphoria has gotten better. My depression was heavy before HRT. While it is better now it is still an issue I am working through and the added stresses, anxiety, and feelings of isolations from GD are strong. Confirmation surgery will allow me to make legal changes with minimal difficulty, specifically my birth certificate. Current laws in the state of my birth prohibit the particular changes that are necessary for my safety. Given the current political climate I cannot in good faith trust that I would not be singled out if some enterprising individual wanted to investigate matters. This is one of my worst nightmares and seeing my birth certificate as it has been holds such a strong feeling of wrongness.
I take a vast amount of precautions when preparing to go out, but even still sometimes there is a wardrobe malfunction. As anyone in the performing arts will attest to, there is always the potential for a wardrobe glitch in even the most thoroughly reviewed and planned outfits. Regardless of how skilled one is at concealing what I would refer to as "dysphoric attributes," there are some outfits that I could not ever conceive of wearing outside of controlled environments. Naturally, this presents a major safety hazard that is highly unpredictable. I'm not comfortable with how my body is, functioning in day to day activities, and how I see myself in the mirror.
Medically my hormones are the same as what a cis gendered woman has. This has been due in part to a constant vigilance and making changes with my doctor to adjust where and when needed. But until the major factor in regulating my hormone levels is removed, this will continue to be a battle of my body against itself. Having this procedure would eliminate the testosterone factory that has been the major cause of my dysphoria. Also, let's be real here, I want to date again and have intimacy with someone!
I do not often ask for help, but I am now. To me, this is about humans helping each other to have a more positive experience on this planet while we are here. If we help one person, then perhaps that person will in turn help others. In the end, it is truly reciprocal. I am humbled for this experience and truly hope to repay in some way the kindness that you have shown me.
A brief summary of how the funds would be used is as follows. These numbers are based off of the insurance that I will have. Unfortunately I will not have more accurate numbers until roughly November. I will of course update accordingly.
Living Expenses: $4,500
Travel Expenses: $1,000
Surgeon Fees: $12,000
For as long as I can remember I have never been the gender I was meant to be. While growing up I hid this behind a carefully crafted mask that many people believed, acting as the only gender my family would believe (accept), my assigned sex. This mask worked, some of the time. Those from my past who actually know me, who got behind the mask to SEE me and accept me, would be able to pinpoint the real me at different intervals throughout my life. Today I am finally able to be who I really am without masks but the distress of my gender dysphoria is a weight I wish to be rid of once and for all.
Dysphoria manifests differently from person to person. Since I started Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT) my dysphoria has gotten better. My depression was heavy before HRT. While it is better now it is still an issue I am working through and the added stresses, anxiety, and feelings of isolations from GD are strong. Confirmation surgery will allow me to make legal changes with minimal difficulty, specifically my birth certificate. Current laws in the state of my birth prohibit the particular changes that are necessary for my safety. Given the current political climate I cannot in good faith trust that I would not be singled out if some enterprising individual wanted to investigate matters. This is one of my worst nightmares and seeing my birth certificate as it has been holds such a strong feeling of wrongness.
I take a vast amount of precautions when preparing to go out, but even still sometimes there is a wardrobe malfunction. As anyone in the performing arts will attest to, there is always the potential for a wardrobe glitch in even the most thoroughly reviewed and planned outfits. Regardless of how skilled one is at concealing what I would refer to as "dysphoric attributes," there are some outfits that I could not ever conceive of wearing outside of controlled environments. Naturally, this presents a major safety hazard that is highly unpredictable. I'm not comfortable with how my body is, functioning in day to day activities, and how I see myself in the mirror.
Medically my hormones are the same as what a cis gendered woman has. This has been due in part to a constant vigilance and making changes with my doctor to adjust where and when needed. But until the major factor in regulating my hormone levels is removed, this will continue to be a battle of my body against itself. Having this procedure would eliminate the testosterone factory that has been the major cause of my dysphoria. Also, let's be real here, I want to date again and have intimacy with someone!
I do not often ask for help, but I am now. To me, this is about humans helping each other to have a more positive experience on this planet while we are here. If we help one person, then perhaps that person will in turn help others. In the end, it is truly reciprocal. I am humbled for this experience and truly hope to repay in some way the kindness that you have shown me.
A brief summary of how the funds would be used is as follows. These numbers are based off of the insurance that I will have. Unfortunately I will not have more accurate numbers until roughly November. I will of course update accordingly.
Living Expenses: $4,500
Travel Expenses: $1,000
Surgeon Fees: $12,000
Organizer
Luna Peacecroft
Organizer
Fort Collins, CO
