The past six months have been the toughest of my adult life. For many unfortunate circumstances and reasons that I cannot get into here, I was forced to quit my job last July. This was not only a job to me; it was the start of something big. I was so sure that this job would set me on a path towards a lifelong career and give me the chance to make the kind of difference in the world that I wanted to see. This, unfortunately, was not the case.
This loss was devastating to my mental and emotional well being in a great many ways and I sunk into a depression that rendered me unable to fight. All of life was a disappointment and an insurmountable challenge. The loss of health insurance made it difficult to seek professional help to tackle this issue. The current employment climate made it difficult to find jobs that would accept someone who was "overqualified" for many things and "underqualified" for everything else. 30+ job applications later and I'm barely on the cusp of finding something steady. I was supposed to start a new job on February 19th, but the funding didn't come through which has sent me straight back to the drawing board. Medical bills from a few health scares and no insurance piled up and not even working a minimum wage job, completing contracted theater work, taking on every odd job I could get my hands on, selling my possessions, and planning on moving into a friend's spare bedroom rent-free could make up the gap.
I tried everything to pull myself out of this depression and financial hole. Applying to medical financial assistance programs, unemployment, state health insurance, state food benefits, bank loans... nothing could quite pan out because I wasn't "unstable enough" to warrant giving help to. I have done everything I can think of and I'm still coming up short. Depression is a razorback beast that gnaws at your very soul, and every step in this fight to survive continues to seem impossible. Even being encouraged to still complete what should have been monumental, personal achievements despite the financial challenges sent me into a spiral of anxiety and feelings of extreme worthlessness.
And now, I am asking for your help in covering at least enough of my bills to escape getting my car repossessed or being hounded by debt collectors. I know that so many of us are struggling with so much these days and that there are so many other reasons to give what little money we each have, but I'm asking for this helping hand in the hopes that I can get on my feet in about a month and return the favor. Anything you can give is appreciated beyond what words can express. Feel free to share if you feel so inclined, and thank you for even taking a look.