Please Help Me Be A Light!!

Hey everyone! Thanks for your time.  My name is Juliana. I am a single mother of two beautiful children Alexandria is 4 and Warren will be 3 years old.  I work at a prescribed pediatric extended care center as a childcare teacher.  I have been with my job for over a year.  I love, teach and nuture my children and the children I work with.  I'm also blessed with the privilege of being dual diagnosed with a substance abuse disorder and mental health diagnosis. I meet with my therapist once a week and attend AA meetings to combat that, as I have been free from any mood or mind altering substances including psych meds for over two years. I facilitate classes 3 to 4 times a month at the place that gave me my foundation,  the Womens Healing Place. I meet with sponsees as often as I can. I chair a meeting at the Mens Healing Place once a week.  I moved my children here from Atlanta when I regained custody last September and I meet my in laws half way for visits. I have been a responsible, productive member of society. Recently my bills increased.  I do receive assistance. Section 8 recalculated my rent and it has been increased by over $300. I just recertified for childcare and that also increased by $200 a month and my foodstamps decreased. That coupled with my $500 car payment and $300 insurance is putting me further in the negative.  I love to work, so I signed up for Doordash. I put my two week notice in at my job and set up to start a factory job to make more money.  However my job is a part of my life, my sobriety and my purpose. All of my affairs I listed work together to maintain my sobriety.   I was allowed to rescind my resignation. All of my bills are necessities. I thought about letting my car go and getting back on the bus which I did for months with both my children. That would take away from the many other things I do to maintain my sobriety. My past poor choices lead me to a super high interest rate,  although I have been paying for my car for almost a year I still owe a lot on it. I spoke with the car dealer and they said I could refinance with more money down yet it seems impossible. My pride said not to reach out and ask for help. How would people view me? Would they call me weak or lazy? Would it be a complete waste of time? I been praying on it and I decided what would be weak is to just let everything I worked so hard for go down the drain! All the work I do comes straight from my heart! I believe in my heart that my God works thru people. So I humble request your help! Please help me to continue to be what God meant for me to be! Anything would be greatly appreciated! 

Honestly, humbly, and sincerely, 
Juliana L