Jason's Medical Travel Fund

I am not really sure what to say. I have always been independent and never really needed help, but as much pride as i have, i must admit, i am in desperate need of help. I have been told by e.r. Dr's that they think i have addisons disease(which supposedly only 200,000 people have)..they have told me-3 different Dr's- that i may have cancer in my esophagus or my lungs. I have worked in landscaping since graduating from high school. I used a backpack sprayer with roundup for years. Even though the sprayer leaked and I told my boss she said it cost too much to replace it. The doctors won't diagnose me as i dont have insurance and i need to see specialist to be officially diagnosed. I am trying to get on Medicaid because i have put it off for so long(denial) and now I've come to the point where i can no longer work, i have been applying for inside jobs online in hopes that its the extreme heat that drains me so much. I have always been a lawn guy. Its what im really good at and what i have always loved to do-heck i would do it for free if i didn't have bills, there's just something about making earths beauties more beautiful that really satisfies me. But no longer can i do what i love.  I weighed 145-150 my entire adult life now i weigh 104 lbs And im 5'11"....i am literally wilting away. I have been down the suicide road, that of course didn't help, only made it worse. I know the steps i need to take to get better, but they all involve money. Money i dont have and bills just dont stop coming just because im sick. I am at a total loss of what to do and where to go from here.  I don't know what else to say besides this really really sucks and it is very embarrassing needing help. But swallow my pride i am a asking for help is what im doing. ALL LOVE