Its time to change my life!

My name is deanna and i am trying to raise funds for my gender confirmation surgeries. 

Here is a overview of me 

I was Born and raised in kempsey nsw.

Growing up in a close nit community was very hard for me... as a child and adolescent i found it extremely hard to fit in with other class mates, most of whom humiliated me and bullied and harassed me for trying to fit in... for trying to be myself...

I attended kempsey adventist school for 9 years and on every school camp i was discriminated against by not only class mates but teachers and camp coordinators, as a result of this i was always left out and i had to sleep in rooms by myself... at every school camp... because the school didn't know how to keep my best interests to a healthy standard...

But this didn't stop me from pursuing my dream of becoming whole. 

Towords the end of my schooling i said to my family and myself enough is enough im going to my year 12 formal the way i feel... so on the 9th of November 2017 i put on my high heals got my hair and nails done and got dolled up for my formal and in doing that i gave myself all the power over anyone who was doubtful over me and i proved them wrong... all of them

I have been through alot in my life especially when i left school and began to transition... but everyone has bad days... and im proud to say that come January i have been medically transitioning for 5 years. It has been so lovely to not be at war with myself. (Partly) Not to hate myself like i did when i hit puberty... which in saying that to some degree i still feel a deep hate and discomfort over my body, gender disphoria is extremely difficult to deal with. No matter what one dose how happy and good your day might be...disphoria hits like lightning...there has been times where ill sit in front of a mirror and cry for hours... its a hard journey to endure but well worth it in the end 

Now i am seeking help for the completion of my identity... i spent hours, days and weeks, months and years trying to be at home with  myself to dream to have such surgeries and to have it be so out of reach for not just me but for many individuals who have struggled financially...

I just want to be able to be a reflection of how i see myself on the inside to be able not be at war with my assigned gender and gender identity... 

I am done fighting and i wish to take the next step towards completing myself 

To be whole and be one is my lifes mission...

I want to shed tears of happiness not sorrow 

I want walk freely, and without care of what i think of myself when i walk the streets of my home town and catch a glimpse of my reflection in shop window and have it ruin my day...

To be able to dance to swim and to run towards a better more comfortable life is what i have been dreaming of since i was a child 

So i ask you all from the bottom of my heart to help me become whole to help me become the best version of myself 

Tears of joy will soon flow from my eyes

And i will be forever grateful for the help and compassion of others no matter how small the donation its the thought and support that counts  Not just for me but evey member of the LGBTQI community in kempsey... 

Thank you for taking the time to read though my wishes hopes and dreams 

One day my dream will come true... and i will be whole both mind body and spirit. 

Kindest regards deanna x