I'm so sorry to be asking for help again...

Hi all,

This time last year, you guys on here saved my life. My Mother had just unexpectedly passed away from Stage 4 metastatic cancer, I not only had no money for her funeral, but I had hardly any electricity, gas or food and was at rock bottom.

Thanks to the immeasurable generosity of people on here, I was able to give my Mother a beautiful service and I have thought about that generosity every single day since.

Due to previous Cauda Equina Syndrome and now lifelong physical spinal, leg and nerve issues (and M.E.), I can average a walk of 12 feet before a horrendous pain tears through my back and the longer I try to walk, the worse it gets, to the point where I lose feeling in my bladder and leg/s which leads to incotinence episodes.

I am on a cocktail of very high palliative pain relief daily that includes Fentanyl and oral morphine.

I mentioned in the Go Fund Me that after 7 years, the government had taken my disability car off me (which I am still fighting) - and luckily, for most of last year, my brother let me use his 24 year-old Rover ad-hoc, but it finally gave up the ghost about 2 months ago.

Now, I am having to pay £10 just to get to the local shop/chemist (£35 return for a hospital trip and back) and it's killing me physically and financially. What would be a 10 minute walk for most people takes me 45 minutes there and longer back, by the time I get home I am in a complete mess; the pain is ripping through my body and most of the time I have wet myself :(

I'm so embarrassed to have to type that let alone tell anyone out loud, but it's the reality of what is happening.

My brother, who lives 3 bus rides away, is a dialysis patient, is having further surgery in two weeks and is awaiting a kidney transplant. I have tried my best to look after him as he has me after losing our Mother, but with the loss of a car between us it is extremely difficult.

Because I am spending on average £160 a month on taxi fares, I urgently need to try and get a second-hand car as soon as possible. I don't care what car it is, how old it is, or what shape it is in, as long as it can get me to the local GP. chemist and a little further out so I can start physio and other beneficial treatments at various hospitals. I am so desperate to get even 30% of my life back but it's impossible to save any money at all while I'm on this continous merry-go-round of having to pay for taxi's every time I have to go somewhere.

A car, any car, would completely change everything.

Thanks to the ongoing generosity and immense support from incredible human beings (inlcuding some on here) I have managed to get through the worst year of my life, I honestly did not think I'd make it to December 2020 and can say hand on heart that had it not been for the kindness I have received, I would not be here now and the enormity of the gratitude I feel cannot be put into words.

I am so, so incredibly sorry to ask for help again.

Times are so tough for everybody and of course I completely understand if nobody is able to help me again.

I'm sorry this is another rambling post but I wanted it to be fully informative.

Thank you for taking the time to read this and thank you again for all your help last time

With love.

Dee X