Housing and medical support for brown trans women
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Hello, I’m Nyla, a 20 year women of trans experience from a Muslim and Pakistani background.
I began my transition at 18 and started self medicating around this age too, had to take a break but started again in feb 2021; since then, my family has realised I’m medically transitioning and have made life unbearable. Although they are not physically stopping me from seeking life saving treatment, they know me well and know that guilt tripping me will ‘hopefully’ make me stop and just listen to them.
I want to move out so I can just live my life the way I want to, dress the way I want to and have the body I should have had, I’m disappointed in the fact that I have such few pounds to my name due to several psych hospital admissions which have stopped me from working.
I am now employed. However, still have a long way to go before I can actually afford to move out, the longer I stay here; the worse I feel. I live full time and never want to detransition( the only time I’m misgendered and disrespected for being trans is by my own family- family who don’t even talk to me unless they want to bully me, siblings who are 12, 9 and 7 years older than me still can’t accept or tolerate that I was born different:
My main motivator for moving out isn’t just my transition, it’s actually for my mental health, living in this hostile environment, I know that I will never be able to recover from self harm or get over the past due to the area in which I live in, I find it difficult to leave the house because people in my area are close minded and it makes my anxiety worse. There has been a point where I didn’t leave my house once in 6 months,
So I’m asking for some help because I know I can’t do this on my own and I serve to just have some mental peace, I don’t want to be in conflict with myself over my families beliefs anymore. Moving out will provide me with more support from my friends as they’ll actually be able to come over, allow me to start therapy as I have little to mo privacy where I currently live, continue on surgically with my transition as well as take full control of my mental health. I don’t want external factors dragging me down anymore:
Gender dysphoria has always got me down, I would like to start saving to get some gender confirmation surgery however it is super expensive, especially living in the U.K. the money donated will be used to pay for any future medical bills for my transition and also to arrange for my HRT to be taken over by private doctors instead of me self medicating which has a lot of risks.
The money raised will be used to pay for my deposit, my first months rent, the holding fee as well as buying some essential things for the flat (food, bedding, toiletries, possibly furniture depending on what has not been included in the flat)
Money above my target will be used for my transition, half will be donated to NAPAC
Any donation would be much appreciated, I’m aware that due to the current climate people cannot donate a lot, I won’t be offended.
I began my transition at 18 and started self medicating around this age too, had to take a break but started again in feb 2021; since then, my family has realised I’m medically transitioning and have made life unbearable. Although they are not physically stopping me from seeking life saving treatment, they know me well and know that guilt tripping me will ‘hopefully’ make me stop and just listen to them.
I want to move out so I can just live my life the way I want to, dress the way I want to and have the body I should have had, I’m disappointed in the fact that I have such few pounds to my name due to several psych hospital admissions which have stopped me from working.
I am now employed. However, still have a long way to go before I can actually afford to move out, the longer I stay here; the worse I feel. I live full time and never want to detransition( the only time I’m misgendered and disrespected for being trans is by my own family- family who don’t even talk to me unless they want to bully me, siblings who are 12, 9 and 7 years older than me still can’t accept or tolerate that I was born different:
My main motivator for moving out isn’t just my transition, it’s actually for my mental health, living in this hostile environment, I know that I will never be able to recover from self harm or get over the past due to the area in which I live in, I find it difficult to leave the house because people in my area are close minded and it makes my anxiety worse. There has been a point where I didn’t leave my house once in 6 months,
So I’m asking for some help because I know I can’t do this on my own and I serve to just have some mental peace, I don’t want to be in conflict with myself over my families beliefs anymore. Moving out will provide me with more support from my friends as they’ll actually be able to come over, allow me to start therapy as I have little to mo privacy where I currently live, continue on surgically with my transition as well as take full control of my mental health. I don’t want external factors dragging me down anymore:
Gender dysphoria has always got me down, I would like to start saving to get some gender confirmation surgery however it is super expensive, especially living in the U.K. the money donated will be used to pay for any future medical bills for my transition and also to arrange for my HRT to be taken over by private doctors instead of me self medicating which has a lot of risks.
The money raised will be used to pay for my deposit, my first months rent, the holding fee as well as buying some essential things for the flat (food, bedding, toiletries, possibly furniture depending on what has not been included in the flat)
Money above my target will be used for my transition, half will be donated to NAPAC
Any donation would be much appreciated, I’m aware that due to the current climate people cannot donate a lot, I won’t be offended.
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