As I hinted at on Facebook last week, I’m in need of help, which is why I needed to start a Go Fund Me page here today.
To make a very long story as short as possible, for most of the past couple of decades – I have made a series of bad decisions in my life regarding the jobs I’ve chosen and poor decisions I’ve made. For that, I have no one to blame but myself – and I freely admit my guilt. Most of the bad decisions regarded entering various sales positions over the years, and I came to the conclusion this week, finally, that I’m not a salesman. I am not a drug user or an alcoholic; I’ve just made bad decisions like an alcoholic might have, maybe – with the dream of being a salesman being the “booze” in my life.
Some of you know this, some of you don’t – but things have degraded to the point (though again, I am to blame for this and no one else) where I live with my mother in Pinellas Park, who just turned 70 years old a few weeks ago. Things have been that way for quite a while now for her and me. I am her only child, and she is my only surviving parent, having lost my father in 1991. I have never been married, nor do I have any children – if you don’t count my cat, Harry. She has had health issues of her own over the years, to the point where she needs me around to help with figuring various issues out for her.
She too has had a series of financial misadventures in recent months – to the point where we are both flat broke with bills being paid, but not having enough money to sustain ourselves with food. My health may also be deteriorating, and I suspect that I may be an undiagnosed diabetic. For the last couple of years, I haven’t been able to drive a car due to issues feeling the foot pedals at key moments that thankfully never led to an accident. I used to be able to trek to the nearest Walmart (a little over two miles away) on foot as needed, but now I get very winded after about a mile, making such trips much longer by having to start and stop every 50-100 yards or so.
With your help and permission, I want to do something good with the rest of my life – I just don’t know what that is yet. I would not object to doing customer service phone work, if I knew it was an actual help to people and that nobody was getting scammed by my efforts. My ability to do physical work may be more limited now, but if needed – I’d do the best I can. I’ve always had a head for numbers and such – I’ve just never had the chance to extend that knowledge beyond high school.
Sadly, that is where my life is at this point. Trust me when I tell you, I’d do anything to have the ability to go back and change what I’ve done. For those you can’t help, I totally get it. For those of you who can, I will be eternally grateful.