Short version is that I work as a computer security consultant/engineer. A lot has happened over the past year... I've been told I had an incoming offer from a job, only for a company to withdraw it because I don't meet the "pace, scale and flexibility" of the role. Since then I've been job searching, and while interviewing, my apartment got infected with roaches and bedbugs, and that forced me to move out.
So... I've finally signed for a new job, but it won't start until next month. It's a contract job, so they told me I won't be eligible for insurance until after 30 days of working. I don't really have health insurance, and to give you an idea of how much my 30-day supply of anti-depressant costs: $389! I've also been thrown into the bureaucracy that is PA Medicaid, and... well, I'm in a lot of debt. I started rationing my medications. My bank is threatening to close my account and report me to ChexSystems by the 15th of Nov. My cell phone is overdue and near shut-off. My car payment is overdue. Many of the dreams I had of finding a job, and finding housing so that I can also house my friends who are in dire straits in their own living situations is slowly getting crushed.
To give you an idea of the type of person I am: I'm someone who hears people out, give them space to vent, and am there to be a friend to someone who needs it. If they feel alone, I help to find an accepting community of people who understand them as well as make myself available. I've been known to drive several hours to help another friend who was stranded on an interstate. I make empathy and kindness a cornerstone of my personality, and I rely on quick, creative thinking to come up with workable solutions... either for myself or others.
And, well, I tried to attempt suicide, because I thought everything was going to hell and I'd never be able to recover from so much debt, and wouldn't be able to get medications for another 2 months. I'd been running into old coping habits that I shunned earlier in my childhood, but resurfaced. My best friend was able to talk me down from the ideation and do a session with my therapist, who did the session pro bono, but the depression and anxiety from drowning in debt and not being able to afford my medications, and not hearing back from Medicaid, is pretty brutal.
These donations will help me afford my medication, pay down the required debt so that my checking account isn't closed by the time I start work, and be able to get my life back on track. I really appreciate any donations, big or small. Thanks!