Su lost 8st, Now thin, help get rid of the skin

 Up until recently I was a full time carer to my ex partner Jason. He suffers with several mental health conditions, severe depression/anxiety as well as being almost agoraphobic. He needs constant supervision and support. Living with mental health is very demanding, both emotionally and physically. Jason has told me that if it wasn't for my support, he would have succeeded on his many suicide attempts. 


 

  I put my all into my family, that means I often neglect myself. I used food as an emotional crutch, not caring when I piled on the pounds/stones. I could easily eat share bags of crisps and family bars of chocolate. It got to the point where I couldn't even walk for 5 minutes without being sweaty and breathless. I couldn't even play with our 2 year old.


   

Something had to change, I was massively obese. I was over 18st, a size 26 and a BMI 42. I went to my Dr to ask about weight loss surgery. I decided to try to loose weight to prove to the Dr that I needed help. Then something amazing happened, I started loosing weight.

  Using calorie deficit, exercise, a lot of hard work and determination, I lost 8st in 1 year. I am now 10st and a size 12. I had hoped that by loosing weight slowly, my skin would shrink back. Unfortunately, after 4 pregnancies and 4 c-sections, my skin didn't snap back. It had stretched that much, it had lost all elasticity. I have been doing RockFit workouts 5/6 tines a week in the hope of shrinking my excess skin. I was completely unprepared for the shear amount of loose skin I was left with. In clothes I look skinny, but my clothes hide a shameful secret. A secret that parts of my naked body disgusts me more now than when I was fat.  I'm left with rolls and rolls of loose skin on my tummy, arms and thighs. Unfortunately exercise won't help. I've been doing 1hour aerobic and toning Rockfit almost everyday with no difference. The emotional side effects are immense. I'm now skinny, but I still feel fat. If I don't get rid of the loose skin, I can see myself falling into a deep depression. There are also physical side effects that come with my loose skin. I get constant painful infections on my caesarean scar, so painful that I can't walk.

I need skin removal surgery. My GP has told me that the chances of surgery on the NHS is 0%, regardless of the constant painful infections. 0% regardless of the fact I lost the weight all on my own without NHS help.

I'm doing everything I can to raise the money, but I need some help. I love that I've lost the weight, I do feel so much healthier and fitter. I just wish I didn't hate the body I've been left with. Thank you for reading my story. Please can you share my story in the hope that I can help others. 

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