Help A Black Homeless Lgbt Teen

I have been abused my whole life. Some of y'all know more than others. It has led to me feeling very uncomfortable being vulnerable or opening up about problems in my life, but I feel as if I have reached the point where I must ask for help.

My father tried to kill me when I was younger and that made me leave my home for concern for my safety, so I'm not able to rely on a safety net like parents or something like I see most of my friends do. I moved to Berlin a year ago to chase my dreams and not live in a city that was so expensive (NYC), but with the nature of my visa (freelance), it is nigh impossible to secure consistent work that gives me enough for basic housing and food needs.

On top of that, the lack of access to consistent and sufficient funds has been negatively impacting my health. As I don't currently have German insurance, I get charged for every trip I take to the doctor. I have chronic gastric (stomach) issues, heart issues, and need some glasses because I honestly can't see most of the world at large hahaha.

Please help me get back on my feet. Please help me have the security I need to dig myself out of this weird hole I'm in. I'm homeless living on people's couches and when I do get money, I'm spending everything I have on a place to live. There's many days where I don't eat at all. Anything at all helps! Thank you so much ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️