Go fund me for medical bills and care

Hello, my name is Trenton and I would really appreciate anyone who takes the time to read this. Recently, I've been hit with the harsh reality that I can't put off my medical bills or treatment any longer.

When I was called into the hospital, I was having a mental health crisis. I wasn't able to take care of myself properly. I wasn't given much help other than a recommendation for a psychiatrist, and then I left with a 3000 dollar bill. It was devastating. I left confused. I avoided it for a while, scared of the truth of the situation I was put in. I'm 20, with no family to turn to for support, with a huge medical bill I now have to take care of. I didn't have anyone I felt comfortable asking for guidance. I felt embarrassed and like I was just going to be a weight on others if I asked for help.

I struggle very heavily with mental illnesses, the biggest one being CPTSD (Complex post-traumatic stress disorder). It makes every single day a challenge. I'm constantly fighting the past. Sometimes help can be so hard to find when money is part of the solution. When I'm in stressful times like these, my symptoms continuously worsen until I'm no longer able to take care of myself.

There are times where I'm so ill that I'm unable to do any work, and I'm scared that it could happen to me soon. It's hard for me to talk about what I go through, mostly because I don't want people to worry about me. To list somethings I struggle with: Flash backs, panic attacks, severe nausea, passing out, voices in my head, severe anxiety, depression, lack of motivation, inability to eat, the want to give up, weakness and fatigue. It can add up so much that I'm unable to even walk properly without assistance. I'm close to asking friends to help me take care of myself.

The purpose of this go fund me is to prevent anything dangerous happening to me. I don't want to have these bills grow on me to the point where I can't pay them off anymore. I also want to be able to make payments and afford my own rent at the same time. I don't want to have to choose to pay my rent consistently, but have these bills increasingly tower over me.

I'm a student, but I've decided to pick up a job to help me pay these off. I'm currently in the process of applying to multiple places. I've been so stressed out recently, between needing to search for a new roommate and dealing with my landlords, that I'm extremely behind on school work. It's been hard to eat, sleep or do just about anything but try to desperately find solutions. I'm considering just putting a pause on school and working full time until this all gets sorted out.

This felt really scary for me to do, but I realize most people will understand and not judge me for asking for help. The first time I talked about this seriously with anybody was tonight. I told my friend I had an awful, stressful day, talking with my landlords and having these bills piling up. They agreed with me that this was a good first step. I just want to feel okay and safe.

If you can't donate, then please, please share. Sharing does so much.

What I will do with the money:

-Make payments towards my medical bills

-Use for mental health treatment such as medication and therapy

-Prevent myself from either having to choose between my rent or my health

-Attempt to regain some sanity and happiness in my life