Help me move out of my toxic household.

Hi, I’m Ace (using a nickname for security’s sake) and i’m 23 years old. I currently still live with my parents, but it is an incredibly toxic household that has drastically affected my mental health. I am subjected to constant belittlement, gaslighting, and control from my parents. It has been like this all my life, and it is getting to the point where I cannot handle it anymore. I lost my job recently and after some encouragement from my therapist and friends, decided to make this gofundme to try and raise money for moving my things to my boyfriend’s house cross country.

 For context to my situation:

 I’m autistic and have anxiety/depression and they are very old fashioned and “pull yourself up by the bootstraps” when it comes to mental health. They constantly shame me for struggling and for not “acting like a normal person”. Im constantly mocked for the way I speak and for my body language and also criticized on a normal everyday basis, mostly from my stepmother. She’s incredibly hypocritical. She doesn’t let me defend myself or freaks out whenever I try to. Im very non confrontational and tend to cry when I try to speak about my feelings towards them, which makes things a lot worse. My dad goes into yelling fits and this usually causes them both to argue with each other. They get on my ass about forgetting things (which is hypocritical because they have forgotten to pick up important medication for me on multiple occasions), constantly get on my ass about school (im in my 5th year of college, which my father originally forced me to attend. he does not pay for my college.) When I had my part time job, they got on me for not having a full time job and did not even see my part time job as a job.

 There are other things that I wont go into too much detail with, like the occasional gaslighting, using my goals against me, making fun of my interests, constant criticism no matter what I do, control/needing to know where I am at all times, and belittlement. My siblings are also frustrated with my stepmoms actions but they do not get it as bad as I do. My dad has stated that he doesn’t want me to move out because he doesn’t think i could handle myself after a breakdown I had last year while I lived in my college apartment. (Note: this wasn’t a breakdown out of nowhere. A lot of events such as death, what was supposed to be my final semester of college, a breakup with my girlfriend of 3 years, shitty roommates) I guess another note is that my parents try to convince me that anyone I move in with will hate me because of my depression and “slowness”.

I cannot live like this anymore, I’m 23 years old, turning 24 in a few months. My parents do not see me as an adult, they see me as a teenager that they have complete control over just because I am disabled. My boyfriend and his mom have offered for a place to stay cross country (again, not stating for security reasons) and have been doing everything they can to help me out there. They’re both very sweet and I can’t thank them enough. I just need funds to get a pod, plane ticket, and some extra funds to be able to support myself while I look for a job in the new place. Even a dollar helps. Sharing this also helps me greatly. I also do art and am open for commissions if that interests you, it might just take a few months for me to complete due to my mental state and (hopefully) the process of moving.

Thank you for reading and for helping.

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