Family Struggles, Bills, Education

Hi. This is probably the most vulnerable and desperate I have ever felt in my entire 20 years of living. Unfortunately, I am doing this because I simply feel there is no other way out of this hole that my household has dug me into. I am a single mother of a 7 month old, however this situation started in 2016 (I was only 18 years old). On an almost full ride athletic scholarship, I pursued my first semester of college. What I thought was going to be the peak of my life, I was forced to leave due to insufficient funds that I was told were taken care of. My father who is a single parent of 3 and works about 60 hours a week is the main provider for us three kids. He hides his struggles with us so that we remain happy. I am sure most parents can understand that. With that being said, I was unaware of the remaining cost of my 3 months I spent away at college, $5,239.67. If anyone is confused at this point in my pathetic story, I had now come home from my athletic career and start of college, to nothing. What I thought was to be some sort of "nice vacation", being irresponsible and not understanding that my future was deteriorating, I decided to take on the role of motherhood at 19. Having a daughter generally does not play into why I am creating a go fund me and asking my loved ones for help. I am doing this because I  can no longer be a student at any college because of these funds. Which I am just now understanding the reality of this. I was 18 years old not understanding the consequences of these actions and what was being planted on me. My reality is setting in and I am at a loss for words. I am now at a point in my life where I am trying to defeat postpartum depression, and more ready than ever to get back to school and pursue a dream of mine, which is nursing. However, due to the funds I was under the impression were being paid for, I cannot attend any school or take any classes unless I pay out of pocket for each class for the next 5 years. My entire paycheck is not even enough to cover a single class at my local community college. I am working at a hospital only two days a week, with bad credit to help pay bills, I am not able to take out any kind of loan. Due to my dads small car finally breaking down after 18 years,  he uses mine to go to work Mon-Fri in order to keep a roof over my head.  I am officially set back from moving on with my life and providing a future for my child. My vehicle, in my dads name, was repossessed from me when I was 8 months pregnant, and I was working two jobs 7 days a week with some extra side work to pay to get it back, along with my dads house bills because there was a period of time he was laid off. There were no other sources of income other than mine and his. After coming up with the money to get our vehicle back, we then dealt with more issues. The careless decisions of my family have resulted in suspension of both mine, and my dad's license. Every time we drive, we risk getting arrested because we have to work. Our car registration is due May 1st, and somehow we have to come up with a few thousand dollars, along with paying all of our other bills, just to drive our car to work and back since we share one car, otherwise if we get pulled over we will go to jail.  All of this financial struggle affects my dads credit, for years he has ruined his credit for his children, going through a toxic divorce, bankruptcy, and depression. so He is also not valid to take out any kind of loans. We could not even get another vehicle if we had the money to fix our license'.  All in all, I cannot even believe I am at this point of begging. My dad does not deserve this burden. He has bent over backwards for his family and he is almost 60 years old still doing it. I know there are people that have it much worse than me. I feel self defeated that I am even typing this. We have always been workaholics and I have turned to God in the beginning of this all, and I will never lose my faith but I truly, truly feel helpless at this point. I am reaching out to the good civilians of this world. I am reaching out to the people who can understand this or for some reason feel they are able to help pull me out of this hole. My dad has no idea I am doing this. He would kill me. I just want to help my family. I feel responsible. I feel ridiculous... I can only do so much with what I am limited to. If you've even gotten this far to my novel....thank you for even reading. God bless you all......