Struggling parent

Like many I lost my job due to covid. Difference between myself and many others is that I have a felon from when I was 18. I work hard as heck coming home to this job I started off in the warehouse making like 10.00/hr then worked my way all the way up to GM. Well in the process of doing that I became a father of multiple and started a family and well, long story short I have taken as many side jobs as possible trying to keep up with bills and just can't anymore. I am currently 2 months behind on mortgage, a couple months on water and electric and wifi. Barely keep food on the table and honestly feel like I don't deserve a family and feel completely defeated. I'm still looking for a job.  Its been what 8 out 9 months now and a friend told me about this.  Honestly I even tried to reach out to LeBron in Instagram lol but as i did idk how social media works so I doubt that was even him.  But I'm s man of work and would honestly pay back any help given to me, of course it would take time but I'm truly not looking for free stuff rather a loan or something I can work off if that is possible.  I just can't lose the house and my family.  I was 18 when I went to prison and now 29 I came home in 2015 and managed to buy a house in 2018 working really hard.