Domestication requires a Domicile

Hey Friends, Strangers, and helpful lovlies, 

My Name is Laura. 

Here's a list of places I have lived:

Boiler rooms,
Bridges,
Couches,
Tents,
A Box truck,
Inside a horse Trailer, 
various small rooms in random houses, 
friends sometimes opened their houses, 
I had one apartment ever for a year.

What you will see missing from this list is any place that was truly my own. 
Not one of them felt like an actual Home. 

I set out last year and gave up a life I loved to find actual domesticated security. 
I took alot of steps to seek this- and now I have a big leap to make. 

Currently I am on a pretty ok sublease, but its about to end. 

I have found a house for Rent, It has 3 bedrooms two bathrooms, and feels like home before I even have any of myself in it. 

I'll admit, I should have done a better job in forward thinking, and tried to save what little of my two job income I have surplus after bills and rent. 
I didn't. I am pretty mad at myself to even ask this of anyone. 

Having only ever rented an apartment, I figured I could get this down payment through loans or excessive extra work. 

I did not realize that loans are something of the past (mostly)
That finding third and fourth jobs would make my schedule so full I would forget how to breath sometimes. 

The First and Deposit payment will be a Total of 
$4,200 
I worked hard, scrounged and tried for grants, I got it down to $3,150. 

The idea here is that if you donate- I intend fully to pay you back. 

*It will probably take time, but I don't want free money here.  I intend to pay you back. 
I would like to be able to make this payment quickly, so I can domesticate in a domicile. 

Further, I am sorry to ask. Thank you for even reading.