My name is Michaele, which is easier to pronounce than it looks (sounds like Michelle) and I am 32yrs old. I am a single mother to 2 amazing boys, as well as an LPN working primarily in Long Term Care, aka nursing homes. I have never been very good at asking for help, but I have come to a point where that choice has been taken from me, so here I am. As a nurse, it is a bad habit of mine to neglect my own health while caring for others and that recently caught up with me in a big way. In December, on a whim I decided to visit my gynecologist for birth control to regulate my cycles and had a pap smear while there, the first one I'd had in 7 years. I was shocked when a week later, I received a call saying that the results came back abnormal. Thus began the most terrifying, emotional, educational, soul searching, and now humbling time of my life. Now, 8 months, 2 surgeries, 2 urgent follow ups due to complications, 1 ER visit due to life threatening hemorrhaging, and $3000 later I am at a place where a decision must be made. It is an unfortunate reality that I have delayed a potentially life saving surgery due to financial issues. My gynecologist wanted to perform a hysterectomy in the beginning of May, after consulting with an ocologist, he gave me the option of waiting until the end of July and retesting but he would rather go ahead and do the surgery now. As of my last biopsy, I do have active cancer cells remaining in my cervix and have recently had a return of the pain and fatigue I experienced prior to my surgery. I am getting scared and my Dr is willing to do the hysterectomy as soon as I am ready. The problem I have, the reason I am sharing all of this, swallowing my pride, and asking for help is this: the surgery I will need requires a minimum of 6 wks of bed rest to recover from. I have a car payment, insurance, storage, and cell phone (my only line of communication) that I have to keep up on. I am staying with my mother so I don't have rent, utilities, or groceries to worry about but she can't take care of everything. My sons' have been so strong and supportive, I have to do this so that I can be there for them for years to come. Any help is appreciated more than you could ever comprehend.