ExJW:Shunned Divorcing & Unemployed

https://twitter.com/ToddFaber/status/1053344189902139393This Twitter thread sums up my situation perfectly. It was the hardest thing I’d ever written when I wrote it two days ago. This GoFundMe is a VERY close second.Since then things are even worse. I’m rationing my antidepressants, which is dangerous enough when things are GOOD. Right now I’m just hoping I live long enough to vote.Today I found out my mother, who sent the pictured cult propaganda through the mail to me, bought my soon-to-be ex wife an iPad. I’m not surprised but it still hurts like mad.The divorce happened at the worst possible time for me secularly: I work in car sales six days a week. The past three months have been my worst performing months in my entire career.I absolutely HATE asking for help. HATE IT. It’s my nature to just plow through and eat PB&J but now every little setback is a catastrophe.My rent is $1312 a month, and a $100 late fee is assessed if I pay after the 3rd of the month (which I do nearly every month since commission drops on the 10th). Every single one of my other bills is past due.I just need to get back on my feet. It feels like I’m fighting an entire army by myself, and in a sense I suppose I am. (Ask any other shunned ExJW. They’ll tell you. And I’m not even “disfellowshipped”.)My kids need me at my best. They are who I fight for.Thanks for listening to the depressed rantings of a tired old bastard. Love to you all.