This morning ...around 7am God called me ... to let me know my mother was tired....she lost her pulse for 8 mins ..while i was sound asleep praying for her speedy recovery... My Mother has been through so much with her health starting with me ...after i was born she was diagnosed with Dieabetes .. God knows as a child i didnt know how serious or important is was for her to be healthy.. we all tried to encourage her to eat better...over the years ... && today after suffering for the last 6 years from kidney failure , congestive heart failure and going to dialyisis 3 times a week causing her body to be so weak ...On Friday around 10am my mother was rushed to the E.R Where they found out she had an a penoumia and was extremly exhausted to the point where she could no longer walk or even function on her own. As i visted her saturday and sunday i could tell my mother was very weakened by all the sickness attacking her body at once . ...&& then god called me and said your mothers heart rate is below 90 through out her whole body ... it kept dropping from 88 to 86 % .....would you like us to Put her on life support for a few days to help her breathe ..better ? ... Thats when i dropped to my knees and really realized this is it ... if shes not better with life support that means she might need it for the rest of her life.. So i agreed... && as monday came ... God called me again and said ...she lost her pulse for about 8 mins...we are going to continue to give her CPR but i dont think she will make it ... Shes loosing her heart beat every 10 to 15 mins and the blood no longer flowing to her brain... so if we continue to give her CPR it will cause brain damage... Then after the 3rd time they said her pupils were dialated ..and she was no longer responding to light in her eyes ... i knew right then ...even though god warned me she was about to go . I was so heartbroken because i can imagine the pain and the saddness she felt ...knowing she was about to leave her only baby and family and friends who she loved so much . I wish i could of been by her side as this time was passing but i know she didnt want me to see her like that :/// && Thats when i got that final phone call from GOD / Doctor telling me ...if it was okay for me to take her to heaven and we pull the life support cord .... & in that very moment my whole heart shattered into pieces . I had to make the biggest decision of my life . .. let them keep reving her and making her feel worse or let her go ....&& i knew i had to be rational and i didnt want my mother to hurt anymore ...so i let her go ....as i made my way back to vegas my mom passed .. around 10:13 am May 30th 201 7 before i could get to the hospital in time to see her. As i continue to write this it becomes more of a reality to me when all i want is for this to be a terrible nightmare and to hug my mother again and tell her how much i need her ..but i know shes in a better place now and pain free . .. This hurts me so badly...As her only the daughter the pressure has been intense and ive always been independent but at this time i come to everyone to ask for your Help.. My Mother was my All she protected me ,,,she loved me ...she taught me to be strong ..she taughgt me to love and to always stay true to myself... i will continue to be the amazing young lady she has taught me to be!&& do everything i can to celebrate her ... I LOVE YOU MOMMY !!!!!
I am Asking for any donations for i am trying to put together a beautiful memorial for my mother . Where everyone can come celebrate her life one more time.
Thank you so much for all of your support !!!
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