Eating Disorder Treatment Help

Many of you perhaps dont know me and/or dont know my story. I am 33 years old and have had an eating disorder for 21 years. I am asking for your help in getting to residential treatment for my anorexia. For the purposes of this campaign, I define myself by my disease and often in my life I have done this because it is the nature of the disease to think that I AM anorexia; to believe that I am nothing but the eating disorder that has taken over two decades of my life.

That said, I know that I am more than a disease. I am a human being who is trying to survive and perhaps didnt learn the best tools at a young age to do so. I am a daughter, a friend, a sister and an aunt. I am a hard worker. As of three years and three months ago, I am a sober woman who does everything in her power to maintain continued sobriety.

But I am also sick. I have someone who has lost jobs, relationships, years of my life. Because of the financial toll that this disease has taken on me, my family and my bank account, I am unable to support myself going to treatment. I am asking for funds to pay for my insurance deductible and out of pocket maximum ($2500). I am also asking for funds to pay for my monthly Cobra ($573.06) so that I can maintain the insurance that will pay for treatment. I am hoping that I can save enough money on my end to pay for my bills while I am in treatment. Ideally I would like to go to Castlewood Treatment Center's Residential Program for at least two months. Your help would enable me to get in the door and stay that length of time. 

Again, I know that I may not know a lot of you and believe me, starting a go fund me is nothing I ever thought I'd have the courage to do. Putting my pride aside, I am asking for your help. No donation is too small. I can promise you on my end that I will work, in the same way that I have worked to get and stay sober, to find recovery. I believe that a full recovery from eating disorders is possible. I believe that recovery and the telling of our stories can be of invaluable help to others who are suffering. I want to be a success story, but unfortunately outpatient treatment is proving insufficient. As my weight continues to drop, my hope of recovery dimishes with it. Supported by my outpatient team, I know that I need a higher level of care and am asking for your help to achieve it. I know that there is life beyond living with an eating disorder. I am scared that if I dont get help, after this long being sick, one day soon my body will give out. I have no idea how I have survived this long, but I believe it is because I am meant to. I am meant to live. I am meant to tell my story. I am meant to help others. I am asking for your help to get me there.