Hey everyone, it's ya girl here(: for the longest I've mentioned "bikini fitness this" and "bikini fitness that" but I never knew exactly what it meant. My trainer Leida, prepped me for the longest and to be quite frank, I realized a lot about myself during the year and a half of being her student... 1.) I found my passion, I found my calling. It's health and fitness. By training and focusing on my physical health, I learned discipline and delayed gratification which I am beyond grateful for. But on the other hand, 2.) I realized I had poor self esteem and an eating disorder. Those that knew me during this time, saw the difference. For weeks I'd do well as far as training and dieting, then when I got negative feedback or "hate" from others, it messed with my head and I'd binge eat. I hated the attention and just wanted to hide myself.
About a few months ago, during quarantine, I had no where to run. I had just me, myself, and I and boy were we not friends... I reached out to therapists and spiritual gurus online cause I had came to the realization, I couldn't tackle this sickness on my own. I needed help escaping the negative restraints my mind had on me. Not exactly sure when it happened, but something clicked, my days weren't so bad anymore, I could catch myself slipping into negativity and reframe my way of thinking into a more positive one. I had done incredibly well with my training, dieting, social life, friendships/ relationships... and one day, September 25th 2020, to be exact, my coaches Leida and Rixio trained me that morning and said "you need to compete. Your physique is practically there, and we will help you." I literally laughed and said "yeah right, and I'm broke right now. Corona affected my job tremendously, there's no way I could afford it." They literally begged me and offered to buy my bikini for competition and offered to let me stay with them, days I needed to meal prep. It was the most empowering interaction I've ever had. They believe in me. They see and saw what I couldn't the entire year and a half I knew them.
I went home that night and pictured myself walking across the stage, holding the first place trophy and I cried. So I called them and told them YES! A million times yes!!!! I have to do this. And now it's 10 days before my competition and I've almost reached my goal. I've done everything I possibly could at this point. I've pawned jewelry, I've worked countless hours, and now thinking of starting my own business once this is over. I would appreciate any donation to help me compete on November 7th, 2020. Thank you so much for taking the time out to read this, I really couldn't have gotten this far without the support I've been receiving lately. This is my dream and as much as I've worked for it, I know it'll work out in the end. Thank you(:
- Romina Villasenor
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