Treatment for mental illness therapy psychiatrist

Hi my name is Robyn Blum last year I lost my sister Kali I am diagnosed with trichotillomania which causes me to pull my hair out it is associated with OCD I also have, major depressive disorder PTSD borderline personality disorder and severe anxiety to the point where I am almost mute I am a stay-at-home mother with very little income disability has denied me many times due to the fact I have very low income to get the help that I need in Missouri psychiatrist consultation is $500 and appointments range from 100 to $200 visit which I would need a few to get my medications correct therapy is 100 to 300 I do not have any type of insurance because Medicaid has denied me. I am asking help to feel normal again and become better and to have a happy full life.