Help us get Rockyonwheels

I was a super young mom who got pregnant at 19 and nobody thought it would ever work out! The world was against us. But there was nothing more I wanted in my life than to be a mom and have a family of my own ! A family that would always chose me . Fast forward 22 years and we couldn’t be happier ! We raised our babies and had the most amazing time doing it and made some amazing memories along the way ! How did a marriage work when we married as children ourselves and never really had the time to be a couple before being parents !?I don’t know how we did it but I can honestly say that I am more in love w my husband today than I was the day we married ! So now that our kids are 19 & 21 we get to start doing things together since our kids are doing their own things. We get to see who we are together as a couple and not just parents ! I was invited to a big family party , since my husband was working I went ! It was my first ever vaca/trip that I did alone !!!! The trip was amazing !! A week with family i haven’t seen in years , memories made that i will remember forever ! I honestly didn’t think I could manage by myself but I did it and it gave me such a feeling of confidence in myself! , since I went from being a kid to being a mom for 22 years I never did anything on my own ! ! I begged my husband for 10 + years for a “grown up “ vaca ! An island vaca where we can just be us and relax ! In 2017 My mom and dad both passed away just months apart and it was the hardest year of my life ! So when my husband finally booked that island vacation I always wanted i can’t tell you how excited i was !!! A roof top hotel room , just him and i !oommmgggggg ! Our trip was booked for our anniversary in November ! I was counting down the days ! Than Our world changed ! In March Ben found a kitten barley breathing at work after he saw him fall 15 feet ! We didn’t realize his disability was a permanent disabilities until we tried every therapy out there for him ( that was around sept/over) ,,, with rockys disability we realized we had to cancel our vaca ! It was heartbreaking but there was nothing I wouldn’t do for rocky ! Rocky saved me ! I was so broken after I lost my parents and I constantly questioned who I was on this earth if not a mom or daughter ! ( my kids being older now I didn’t have to be a “mom” daily and I had no idea how to be me ) he gave me purpose and the constant love I needed at that time in my life ! He is my boy and I need him more than he needs me ! My life is better with him in it ! But now our whole world and how we do things has forever changed ! I don’t like to leave rocky home alone over 6 hours and if I am going to be longer I take rocky w me .. but i can’t always take him .. i would love to visit my step mom , aunt , cousins and friends ( which would have to be a day trip because of where they live ) but they have animals of their own so it just can’t happen w Rocky,,, so i haven’t visited them in quiet a while now . We did go on two vacations w Rocky ( he was amazing ) ,, but being in a new hotel he’s nervous so we didn’t leave him alone in the hotel room ( again I will do anything for my boy so it isn’t an inconvenience to me or my family to do these things for him ) so I would stay at the hotel w rocky while my husband and daughter went out than we would swap and my husband would stay and my daughter and I would go out and so on ,,, and if we all went out together we took rocky so we had to make sure wherever we went rocky was allowed ,,, I at times feel tremendous guilt that is at times crippling because I feel like I have held my family back from doing things because I have rocky ! They always say “ he’s out boy our son , it’s ok and we will do anything he needs us to do “ but I still feel guilty ! I feel they don’t plan things because they feel guilty for leaving me home w rocky even though I tell them to go and I will be fine Having an RV IS OUR DREAM ! If we had an RV of our own we can spend lots of time in it while we are home and not traveling which would get rocky mittens and buddy used to it and think of it as an extension of our home ! Which would than allow me to leave at a moments notice to go visit family and friends and not need anyone’s help because I would be able to have Rocky right outside in the RV ! I would be able to know he’s ok and change or feed him when I need to ! We can also vaca so much easier and I would be able to go out W my family and know Rocky is ok and happy ! I would able to just run to the rv when he needs changing and go back to being out with the family !!!! I’m super fortunate and I will survive without an RV but if there is even the smallest amount that you could spare to help me get to my dream I would be so beyond grateful! I think I would cry for a year but it would be happy tears!!!