Relocation from Domestic Violence

Though I find great pleasure in the power of giving, I often have too much pride to ask for help when I need it. I usually choose to struggle before I ask for help. Though I appreciate the growth and wisdom struggles bring us my circumstances dont present a choice of struggle over swallowing my pride and asking for help. If I were to choose struggle Id be choosing a death sentence for my children and I. My children and I are Domestic Violence victims and stalking trying to remain the survivors that we are. I am seeking help to fund our relocation out of state. As it is extremely hard for me to talk about our story, I have found that it is just as hard for people to hear. This is my disclosure that the things you read may deeply disturb you or even make you angry. My story is a true horror story down to every element; almost unreal.In 2013, after being in what seemed to be a healthy relationship for about 2 years, my boyfriend started to show signs of a disturbed state of mind. I blew it off, because there was a tremendous amount of stressors in our life. His aunt passed away, I had a miscarriage and we were taking care of his little brothers because his mother was a junkie along with my depression from losing a child, losing my brother to murder and then my best friend the day after. I thought it would pass. Shortly after this behavior started I concieved our son and thats when his behavior took a violent turn towards maniac. Along with constantly dealing with emotional terrorism, possesiveness and angry outbursts on inanimate objects he started strangling me to the point of a black an fuzzy brain along with sexual assaulting me in my sleep. His tendencies became the regular until my son was born in June 2014 . When it was time for me to go back to work from maternity leave because I was the sole and only provider in the house; thats when the death threats started and the violence became unspeakable. In November, 2014 I finally started to wake up and realize that I had major stolkholm syndrome going on and that if I didnt get away it was going to be the end of me and my children. After being punched in the face and being thrown across a room by my neck I made it out the door to the parking lot of my apartments and he scattered while I am frantically screaming for help. I called my friend so she could come to my house though I didnt feel safe. About 15 minutes after she arrived while we are discussing calling the police, my abuser shows up at the front door and kicks my door in. Thank the lord my friend brought her gun for protection that day. Guns were drawn, cops were called, and he managed to get very minimal jail time and an order for protection was put in place in attempt to keep him away from me.  In December he violated the order and was put in jail for about 90 days. Shortly after he was released he ambushed me at my front door raging that he was going to keep his promise and make sure I die this time. He almost succdeeded that day. I sustained multiple kicks and stomps from the back of my head all the way down the left side of my body along with other injuries. The doctors told me that if he would have stomped on my head one or two more time I would have died and if I didnt die I would have had serious brain damage. What a miracle! This was when the 2nd order of protection was put in place. Once again he served a little over 90 days in county jail.     Shortly after he was released he showed up at my door again on January 2nd 2016. I was violently attacked with threats to kill me and my children, my mother was also punched while she was holding our 19 month old son. Police where called but the officer didnt file the report like he said. Three days later on January 5 my abuser was contacting me and threatening me, police were called and the Jan 2nd incident was believed to be taken care along with the violation that occured that day but never did. As a result nothing was done on the authorities side and he remained free. Between January and March of 2016 he violated 3 times in which a stalking investigation was preformed and due to the fact that it is extremely hard to prove stalking he remained free. After he remained free I took the executive decision to leave my apartment, live in my car and place my 2 children with my brother until I found a domestic violence shelter with availablility. It took about 4 months to finally get into a shelter and find housing. In October, my abuser started contacting me on fake profiles on Facebook got another 2 violations from then until December 2016. Once again the authorities didnt hold him accountable and he remained free. About 4 months after my children and I got into housing my abusers girlfriend reached out to me on Facebook and told me that she is worried about my kids and I because he had been telling her that if he didnt get help he was going to end up killing us both. She said that a day or two after he said that he picked her up by her neck and choked her until she urinated on herself. I couldnt get her to goto the police and they wouldnt allow me to file a report without her testimony because its hearsay. She didnt want to goto the police because she was just as scared as I was. My abusers father Barnes Nettles was a double murder suicide in Texas in 2010. His father killed his girlfriend and in attempt in shooting her 11 year old daughter he shot a cop then turned the gun on himself. This is the 3rd murder suicide in his family. On August 21st,2017 I recieved 2 phone calls from the jail, the second one I answered. It was my abuser, and I am in shock because I dont even know how he got my phone number. He called me 6 days before he was released on a failure to appear to court for the DV case. Exactly a month later he was outside my apartment at my daughters bus stop. Reports were filed but the city didnt file charges. Thats where I made the ultimate decision I had to relocate out of state to protect my children and I. With no justice served I have no other choice. I have gotten everything in place so we can seek refuge but. I even have a Human Rights attorney that is going to fight for us but I have searched high and low for resources to help cover moving costs but unfortunetely its all talk and no action. Please help my 2 children and I restore our quality of life, have the opportunity to heal and to continue to be the survivors that we are. We will make you proud that you saved our lives by demonstrating the same love and compassion you have shown us by donating to our fund. Thank you for the precious time you took to read our story! Much Love.