Fire Burns Town Down Survivor Needs Help

          I'm raising money to rebuild my life, after surviving the worst fire, in California history, the Butte Camp Fire, on November 8, 2018. I ran out of my house, with only the clothes on my back, carrying my cat carriers, with my 3 cats and loaded up my 2 dogs, a Yorkie and a chihuahua, leaving behind everything. And, I do mean everything - I have nothing. The above two pictures is the before and after of the house. There is no town to go back to, as you have seen on the news probably by now. I will never be able to go back there. I have respiratory issues, as does my senior Yorkie, Paxton. I cannot take Paxton back to that area; he would suffer and possibly die. I have him, at my mother’s place, in Sacramento, because he was, and still is, in respiratory distress. I am at a Motel 6, in Marysville, California, with my cats and chihuahua. My neighbor told me he saw my house burn; so, I knew within days, it was gone. I have no idea, where I will go. I am still trying to work that out.
          My body is in an extraordinary amount of pain, from all the past violence and accidents to my bones and muscular system. I was in physical therapy, when this fire happened. I have many medical issues, and the VAMC is a nightmare. There are so many hoops you must go through to get treatment, and I have not been able to continue, while in transition. There is nothing easy about dealing, with the VA system. Now, I need to figure out how to get my body and mind back, at optimal level. I am barely walking, when my hip and back become inflamed, and I cannot do nearly what I need to do to rebuild everything. I cannot walk up and down store isles trying to shop for everything. I can only get the bare minimum of things. I am exhausted, I cannot do that much and my funds are limited. Going up and down the motel stairs is straining me. Absolutely, no way, can I physically do it all. 
          My life has not been a walk-in-the-park. I served my country, and came home with PTSD, after being assaulted, by my drill sergeant, during the Desert Storm/Gulf War. Not wanting to tell anyone what happened to me, I just tried to put one foot in front of the other; but, I got slammed, by life, repetitively, non-stop, for a good 25 years. This house I purchased, in Paradise, California, was to be a respite, a place to finish a book about the lessons I learned accumulating concussions, starting as a child athlete, at 7 years old; and, all my survival stories; and, the wisdom I learned, along the way, hoping to spare the next generation of youth, from clocking so many decades of suffering and hardship. After the book was finished, I was going to put the house up for sale and move to southern California to find sponsorship to discuss brain injuries, domestic violence, and sexual assault, with the equity I would receive, when the property sold. All that planning is halted, unless I can find a miracle around the corner, from where I am standing, in despair, praying for mercy, with my faith in God strong.
          Few people truly understand domestic violence and how a woman can remain, in those toxic relationships, isolating themselves, from any friends and family. That is my story, where I want to raise awareness and compassion. My lack of friendships, who I can call, is due to my brain injury. It is not easy, for me, to create a social life to meet people. I have many obstacles I have to work through to be out in environments, where people socialize. I have many multi-sensory sensitivies. It isn't easy, for new people to be willing to get around those issues, where they will come to be, by my side, to support me, in this time of deep loss, for example. It isn't that they don't care, it's they don't know me to love me, sort of situation. After my last destructive relationship, I immediately sustained a major concussion, in a car accident, where I almost went over a cliff, in July 2004; and, with the previous concussions, this vehicle accident took my brain in a crazy direction, I am still figuring out how to self-regulate, today. I lost half of my 30's, and all of my 40's to this last one. It isn't like I'm unlikable, rather it's people don't have a history, with me, to remind them, who I was before the personality change and brain symptoms developed immediately. I've been in this brain injury experience, going on 15 years. The TBI was instantaneous, like this raging fire; and, for all those 15 years, I have been trying to get people to see beyond my very well-documented medical condition. 
          Everybody I meet is a new person, who have no time invested in a relationship, with me. As a result, I have struggled to make friends and build business relationships. I have, basically, been isolated from the world, in huge ways, for about 15 years, struggling on my own to rebuild my life from nothing. This is not my first fire. I lost everything I owned, in a storage building fire, where I had all my possessions burned to the ground, in January 2001. All my yearbooks, and so much more, gone, then, too; but, I did have things with me, at the time of that fire. This time, I am really at nothing. 
          This fundraising will go directly to my motel stay here in Marysville, as well as food and gas. I am vegetarian. It isn't easy to find food I can digest. Until I know where I am going and/or an opportunity presents itself, there is no reason, for me, to relocate to Sacramento, or anywhere else, over the coming month(s.) That means I could be, in a motel, into spring or longer. Over 30,000 people were displaced, and many of them already bought up most of the real estate inventory, in my price range, along with all the rentals taken, too. This fundraiser is only a small amount, of what I really need to successfully transition out of this life experience.
          Bless your heart to all who read my story. I would be most grateful, if you could post my GoFundMe link, on your social media sites. If I have any chance, with this fundraiser, I need for it to go viral. Please help me get the word out. Thank you for your support.