Becoming Hudson~ Top Surgery Fund
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My name is Hudson Ryan Jacobson. I am a 21-year-old transgender male. I use he/him/ male pronouns to identify myself, though I was born anatomically female on May 22, 1996. Before adopting the name Hudson, my parents had named me Hannah Rose Jacobson. For as long as I can remember, I have always felt trapped in this female gendered body, MY body. Despite my female anatomy, I have identified more towards the male gender, possessing masculinity, rather than with the female gender. ‘Top surgery’, otherwise described as the surgical removal of breasts and construction of a masculine chest, has been a dream of mine since the age of 16. After years of hiding who I am, I am finally moving forward with my transition.
For many years I have binded my chest in the struggle to obtain comfort in my own body. The binding of ones chest is the wearing of a top that compresses the breasts to achieve the appearance of a smaller chest, or the lackthereof. Doing this, day after day, to have the appearance of a flat, male chest has taken a major toll on my body and health. Binding for more than 6-8 hours is not recommended. It has implemented a chronic back and neck problem that has resulted in extreme pain and discomfort. This, in turn, has caused the need for both acupuncture and a chiropractor, on a weekly basis. In my culinary career, as a line cook, wearing a compression top in order to bind my chest, restricts my movement, makes it extremely hard to breathe, presses against my ribs, hurts my back, and my shoulders. To take the binder off at night is a huge relief, as its removal allows me to take a full breath without any restrictions. As much pain as it causes me on a daily basis, I do it to feel comfort in my own body when going to public places.
For those of you that know me, I have never had a problem lending a hand when needed, but asking for a hand has never been easy. I have done my best to help others, but I have always struggled with reaching out and asking for help when I need it. I have worked very hard in hopes to move out of my mother’s home, but have found the need to put that aside momentarily. I feel that using the money I have saved towards my surgery will significantly improve the quality of my life. As scary as it is to have to start over on this long term goal, achieving the ability to be satisfied and comfortable in my own body has surpassed all other goals. My happiness has to come first.
I have most recently started HRT (hormone replacement therapy). Testosterone will change my physical appearance, voice, and redistribute fat, but I will still be left with my breasts. This causes me to be mis-gendered and prompts an unsettling dysphoria. With top surgery, these problems would find their resolution.
After doing extensive research on surgeons of whom specialize in this particular surgery and consulting with them, I have finally found the surgeon that I feel most comfortable and confident with. My surgery date is scheduled for December 4th 2017 with Dr. Peter Raphael in Plano, Texas. I will be flying to Texas the day before surgery for my pre op appointment. The following day, surgery will be performed. I am required to stay in Texas for one full week, from the date of my surgery to my post op appointment. The estimated price for traveling to Plano, Texas, including accommodations for 11 days, is roughly $2,000. Unfortunately, insurance does not cover this procedure. With the cost of surgery, lab work, medications, travel, hotel, food, and rental car I am facing a total of at least $10,000. Not to mention that the surgery will prevent my ability to work for three to four weeks in order to make a complete and successful recovery. Ten thousand dollars is what separates me from overall happiness. Ten thousand dollars is what separates me from being ME.
Thank you for taking the time to read my page. Any contribution helps, whether that is donating or sharing the page. Any extra funds will be donated to someone searching for the same freedom I am. Everyone deserves to be happy and feel comfortable in their own body. I would love for the ability to make this dream of mine become a reality, with your help. From the bottom of my heart, your support, love, and contributions are all very much appreciated. I strive to wake up on Christmas morning, free of pain, in the body that I desire and deserve. I aim to venture through the summer of 2018, shirtless. I desire the ability to use the male bathroom without shame or discomfort. With your donations, shares, and support, I can achieve these goals and be the person I have always been on the inside, on the outside.
I will continue to update you guys on my transition!
For more information regarding the surgeon or top surgery, I have attached the links below.
www.ai4ps.com/transgender-procedures-plano/female-to-male-plastic-surgery
www.topsurgery.net/procedures
For many years I have binded my chest in the struggle to obtain comfort in my own body. The binding of ones chest is the wearing of a top that compresses the breasts to achieve the appearance of a smaller chest, or the lackthereof. Doing this, day after day, to have the appearance of a flat, male chest has taken a major toll on my body and health. Binding for more than 6-8 hours is not recommended. It has implemented a chronic back and neck problem that has resulted in extreme pain and discomfort. This, in turn, has caused the need for both acupuncture and a chiropractor, on a weekly basis. In my culinary career, as a line cook, wearing a compression top in order to bind my chest, restricts my movement, makes it extremely hard to breathe, presses against my ribs, hurts my back, and my shoulders. To take the binder off at night is a huge relief, as its removal allows me to take a full breath without any restrictions. As much pain as it causes me on a daily basis, I do it to feel comfort in my own body when going to public places.
For those of you that know me, I have never had a problem lending a hand when needed, but asking for a hand has never been easy. I have done my best to help others, but I have always struggled with reaching out and asking for help when I need it. I have worked very hard in hopes to move out of my mother’s home, but have found the need to put that aside momentarily. I feel that using the money I have saved towards my surgery will significantly improve the quality of my life. As scary as it is to have to start over on this long term goal, achieving the ability to be satisfied and comfortable in my own body has surpassed all other goals. My happiness has to come first.
I have most recently started HRT (hormone replacement therapy). Testosterone will change my physical appearance, voice, and redistribute fat, but I will still be left with my breasts. This causes me to be mis-gendered and prompts an unsettling dysphoria. With top surgery, these problems would find their resolution.
After doing extensive research on surgeons of whom specialize in this particular surgery and consulting with them, I have finally found the surgeon that I feel most comfortable and confident with. My surgery date is scheduled for December 4th 2017 with Dr. Peter Raphael in Plano, Texas. I will be flying to Texas the day before surgery for my pre op appointment. The following day, surgery will be performed. I am required to stay in Texas for one full week, from the date of my surgery to my post op appointment. The estimated price for traveling to Plano, Texas, including accommodations for 11 days, is roughly $2,000. Unfortunately, insurance does not cover this procedure. With the cost of surgery, lab work, medications, travel, hotel, food, and rental car I am facing a total of at least $10,000. Not to mention that the surgery will prevent my ability to work for three to four weeks in order to make a complete and successful recovery. Ten thousand dollars is what separates me from overall happiness. Ten thousand dollars is what separates me from being ME.
Thank you for taking the time to read my page. Any contribution helps, whether that is donating or sharing the page. Any extra funds will be donated to someone searching for the same freedom I am. Everyone deserves to be happy and feel comfortable in their own body. I would love for the ability to make this dream of mine become a reality, with your help. From the bottom of my heart, your support, love, and contributions are all very much appreciated. I strive to wake up on Christmas morning, free of pain, in the body that I desire and deserve. I aim to venture through the summer of 2018, shirtless. I desire the ability to use the male bathroom without shame or discomfort. With your donations, shares, and support, I can achieve these goals and be the person I have always been on the inside, on the outside.
I will continue to update you guys on my transition!
For more information regarding the surgeon or top surgery, I have attached the links below.
www.ai4ps.com/transgender-procedures-plano/female-to-male-plastic-surgery
www.topsurgery.net/procedures
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Hudson Ryan Jacobson
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Agoura Hills, CA
