A Pathway To Hope

Want to join me in making a difference? I'm raising money to benefit CANADIAN MENTAL HEALTH ASSOCIATION KELOWNA BRANCH, and any donation will help make an impact. Thanks in advance for your contribution to this cause that means so much to me. July 1st 2018... Lost, Nothing left, Insane, BI polar, PTSD, Manic, Depression, Addiction, Suicidal, Just a shell.. My soul buried under layers and layers of hurt, protection, stigmas, lies, pain....  Without help I picked myself up. My spirit was still alive... I pushed on and tried my best to hide myself from the world. The old ways always found their way back to me. I tried everything I could to hide the thoughts in my head, yet never asked for help..  Flash forward, Nov 26th... The crash... The total Crash... The one I was fighting so hard to get too. The last thing I could loose. Myself.  Staying in a homeless shelter. Nov 27th, I woke up alone. a lifetime of suffering had brought me to this point in life. Spend my last few dollars buy a bottle of rum. Thoughts of suicide running so rampant.. Finished my bottle, only a few more steps and I am ready to leave this place....  I stepped in Dog shit... Not in front of that logging truck... Someone has a sick sense of humour! I walked to the ER in Williams lake, washed my shoe off in the sink and began my pathway hope. The next 3 months were the hardest of my life. How did I end up here and where did it all go wrong. Williams Lake CMHA found me a place within 2 days of getting out of Detox. I found the word "Gratitude" Food, shelter and support.. WOW! Such basic things now mean everything. With the help of Canadian Mental Health, Interior Health and The province of BC. I finally got exactly where I needed to be. I got a Provincial bed at the Phoenix treatment centre in Surrey BC. AMAZING!  My next 3 months I got the help I was always too afraid to ask for. I cant thank them enough.. So many life changing things were offered. I found some of the most beautiful people I have ever met. The people that want to make a difference in their own lives and others lives. Life is energy and the energy in these places is unlike anything I have ever felt.  I could feel things again, I started looking at people again. My spirit came back in there. After 25 years of looking at life in a shade of Gray. The lights. The Energy. The vibrant came back. The essance of my protected inner child was free!  Today, 7 months from Dog Shit.. The province announced, "A pathway for hope" Program. Weird how the world works, I was planning a bike ride from Victoria to Whitehorse Yukon to raise money for Mental Health and Addictions and hopefully plant some seeds along the way to help others see the beauty and joy in life here. I beat them to the punch. hehehe. I loved the name though. July 1st 2019, I leave Kelowna. Working towards my ultimate goal. My children, I know now how to give them the gifts I have learned. I always had my life, present moment, energy, love, and now I see it all. THANK YOU EVERYONE!       Its my turn now to help out. All there is and ever will be is that special place, its in there and hopefully I can help along the way...  I will be taking part in a 2600km bike ride over the month of July. I now am free! To give back, to show it is possible.  Proceeds will benefit CMHA Kelowna, Williams Lake and Whitehorse Yukon. To help the people that help the people. Its going to be an amazing journey :)  Lots of Love Tyler