Join the Journey

I've told myself since October of last year that I had no intentions of "asking people for money".  I mean,  no one enjoys that side of friendships and sharing life with one another, do they?

Wrong.  

Honestly I think it's the other way around. I KNOW that people enjoy joining those they want to do life with along the green pastures and dark valleys we find ourselves in.  And by this along the way, we can join others to become a part of something separate  that in turn becomes bigger than just our own lives.

In October, I somehow successfully landed a spot in Hillsong's Music College for song-writing and if that isn't a literal dream come true in this life, I am not sure what is. 

To be completely honest, I HATE asking for assistance, even though it's more fun than anything else in the world to me to assist someone else. I just have this thing about wanting to earn my own way. However since October, I've had multiple friends ask me if I had a website set up or something to help me fund the beginning of this journey to foreign lands for word and sound sewing, and I kept saying, "Nah, not just yet. I'm not sure if I should."

I took some time to sit and figure out what made me so hesitant to create something like this to begin with among my should's and shouldn'ts, and I came to a few very clear conclusions. Two of which I'd like to share. 

This doesn't feel life real life yet. The life I have come from to the current one STILL, at times especially like these, does not seem like it could possibly be real. But yet, I keep hearing that it infact is.
And to top off my hesitancy with vulnerability here, I have this weird slight fear of feeling controlled by the pocket of someone else (don't we all?),  and I evidently enjoy the false feeling of thinking I can make it through life without needing anyone and can instead just be there for them when they need me.

It seems the most free-spirit way to live, right?

But quite frankly, that is just not the kind of world we live in. Impacting the world is not easily done single-handedly, and I've come to the realization that it's actually, theoretically impossible. (we can casually sprint a chat about this if you feel the urge sometime :] ) I have this big dream unfolding directly infront of me (count down to flight take off: Beginning of July), and simply stating it,

I genuinely need your aid.

If you're the kind of person who understands what it means to be vulnerable and ask for assistance when almost every creavase of your physical existence is acting like a defeated 5-year old, then you can probably feel the nervousness of my gut reverberating through your end of the computer screen here.

So without further a'do, I would like to kindly reach out theunderside of my hand to you and implore you lightly to take my hand and join me on the journey.  I want to begin creating the kind of  songs that can engage the intellect while simultaneously speaking straight into the heart of our generation, and cause them to rise up in a way that changes not just people, but the heavy atmosphere that constantly hangs over the heads of so many of us.

This is doable. This is possible. I've seen it already. I want to impact this generation with goodness and hope so that they become everything they were intended to become from the start of their inception.

This is not a journey I want to travel alone, as it is a journey that requires everyone who is willing to link arms in this moment. We can do this, you and I, and I would be so excited to say and know that we were in this together.

So I want to thank you here!
Thank you for your prayers! I have felt them in my bones, especially the last year.
Thank you for your encouragement! I cherish it even deeper to my marrow.
Thank you for spending so many of your precious, transient seconds and minutes and hours and days spreading as much love and sunshine and hope and Truth and good life as we can muster together! The pleasure is mine completely.
Thank you for believing in me when I didn't know how to believe in myself! 
In this last year , your love has saved my life. Literally.

It would be an honor to share this time in life with you. Please let me know if you would like to embark on this crazy adventure with me!

It begins now.