My Gender Confirmation Surgery
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Please help me reach my goal to get gender comfirmation surgery. I am a young trans girl trying to make it in the world, but I need some help to be able to be comfortable in my own skin. please watch my video to hear my story :)
Thank you <3
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transcript
My name is Kayla Taylor I am 21 years old and I am transgender,
I have always struggled with who I was, from my earliest memory I knew I was not a boy.
I never like boy things and was always playing with the girls in school.
This did not seam like a problem until middle school.
Fag
Gay
Monkey boy
Thing
These are only a few of the names I was called.
I went home every day and locked myself in my room, and laid in my bed crying
wondering what was wrong with me.
I had no friends
No life
No love
At 15 I tired my first suicide attempt with some of my moms sleeping pills
It did not work and no one even noticed I had tried.
I became completely withdraw
I stopped feeling
Two years later I was kicked out of my parents home
They thought I was gay
Some good friends took me into there family
They adopted me
For the first time in my life I felt like I had a place I belonged
I still felt wrong in my own body but I had learned to ignore this
I started college one year latter and began to live on my own
While I was doing research for a paper I came across the term transgender
The more I read the more I realized that this is what was wrong
This is why I never felt like my self and others felt the same
It took me another 2 years before I finally came out to my new family
They told me that god does not make mistakes and if I went down this road I would lose them.
I was torn apart how could I be happy with transitioning if I would lose the people I loved so much.
How could I turn my back on my faith
I became extremely depressed and began skipping meals
And when I did eat I would through it back up….
I felt discussed with my body
And some how I could no longer bury my feelings.
I decided that there was only one choice left
I chose to take my life
I knew that if I lived I wouldn’t be able to stop my self from transitioning
And that in the long run my death would hurt those I cared about less
I drove myself to an empty parking lot and with tears in my eyes took 400 over the counter sleeping pills
1 ½ weeks latter I woke up from a coma in the hospital
the first thing I saw was my adoptive family standing over me with tears in there eyes
they told me that they loved me
that they might not understand but they would try
that I was to important to them to lose so pointlessly
I am still struggling
And they still have a hard time fully supporting me
But they are trying
Life does get better so hold on
And never forget that there is some one who cares.
Thank you <3
subtitles work :)
transcript
My name is Kayla Taylor I am 21 years old and I am transgender,
I have always struggled with who I was, from my earliest memory I knew I was not a boy.
I never like boy things and was always playing with the girls in school.
This did not seam like a problem until middle school.
Fag
Gay
Monkey boy
Thing
These are only a few of the names I was called.
I went home every day and locked myself in my room, and laid in my bed crying
wondering what was wrong with me.
I had no friends
No life
No love
At 15 I tired my first suicide attempt with some of my moms sleeping pills
It did not work and no one even noticed I had tried.
I became completely withdraw
I stopped feeling
Two years later I was kicked out of my parents home
They thought I was gay
Some good friends took me into there family
They adopted me
For the first time in my life I felt like I had a place I belonged
I still felt wrong in my own body but I had learned to ignore this
I started college one year latter and began to live on my own
While I was doing research for a paper I came across the term transgender
The more I read the more I realized that this is what was wrong
This is why I never felt like my self and others felt the same
It took me another 2 years before I finally came out to my new family
They told me that god does not make mistakes and if I went down this road I would lose them.
I was torn apart how could I be happy with transitioning if I would lose the people I loved so much.
How could I turn my back on my faith
I became extremely depressed and began skipping meals
And when I did eat I would through it back up….
I felt discussed with my body
And some how I could no longer bury my feelings.
I decided that there was only one choice left
I chose to take my life
I knew that if I lived I wouldn’t be able to stop my self from transitioning
And that in the long run my death would hurt those I cared about less
I drove myself to an empty parking lot and with tears in my eyes took 400 over the counter sleeping pills
1 ½ weeks latter I woke up from a coma in the hospital
the first thing I saw was my adoptive family standing over me with tears in there eyes
they told me that they loved me
that they might not understand but they would try
that I was to important to them to lose so pointlessly
I am still struggling
And they still have a hard time fully supporting me
But they are trying
Life does get better so hold on
And never forget that there is some one who cares.
Organizer
Kayla Taylor
Organizer
Port Orange, FL
