HELP MY FAMILY!! TEMPORARILY BROKEN

I'M IN A VERY BAD SITUATION WHICH PUTS MY 4 KIDS IN ONE I'M LEFT IN A PLACE OF HOPEPLESSNESS, DISBELIEF, DEPRESSION AND DESPERATION .. I DON'T LIKE ASKING FOR HELP IF ANYONE KNOW ME FROM FAMILY LET ALONE STRANGERS..I BUT FOR MY CHILDREN I WILL SWALLOW MY PRIDE AND DO JUST ABOUT ANYTHING.   I HAVE TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE I HAVE KNOWN FOR ALL OF MY LIFE... I NEED TO GET INTO A HOUSE SO THAT WE CAN HAVE THE SPACE WE NEED SO WE CAN FEEL SAFE AND SECURE IN A PLACE BETTER EQUIPPED. I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO ACHIEVE THIS AND EVERYTIME I THINK I SEE LIGHT I'M KNOCKED DOWN..KIDS VITIMIZED.. DISABILITY, SURGERY AND NOW INJURY AFTER WHICH HAS LEFT ME IN PAIN SOMETIMES I CAN'T BARE DAILY BUT I PUSH. I LOSS OF USE OF MY RIGHT ARM AND WAS TOLD IT WILL BE SOME TIME MAYBE 2 YEARS. I STILL HAVE TO HAVE SURGERY AGAIN BUT HAVE TO PUT IT OFF TILL I'M STRONG ENOUGH. PENDING DISABILITY I'M UNABLE TO WORK, THUS I'VE BEEN UNABLE TO DO SO,  BUT RECENT EVENTS HAVE FORCED ME TO LEAVE NOW AND I'M NOW I'M BACKED AGAINST THE WALL. I'M NOT THE KIND OF PERSON TO KEEP SHIFTING MY KIDS PLACE TO PLACE, I LIKE STABILTY AND STRUCTURE IN THEIR LIVES SO I WOULD LIKE IT TO BE A FINAL MOVE. Y'ALL ALREADY KNOW I'M STILL WORKING WITH MY SON THAT WAS VICTIMIZED BY A TEACHER IN 2012 AND HE'S STILL STRUGGLING. MY LITTLE ONES ALREADY WORRY ABOUT ME AND MY HEALTH BECAUSE THEY LOST THEIR BIRTH MOM TO CANCER. I JUST WANT TO GIVE THEM A LITTLE EASE AND SOME PEACE OF MIND... I'M IN THERAPY 5 TIMES A WEEK AND IT WAS ALREADY HARD AND NOW I NEED TO REALLY GET AWAY. I DON'T WANT TO DISCLOSE TOO MUCH MORE THAN THAT.   PLEASE HELP ME TO GET US OUT OF HERE. IT'S 5 OF US SO IT'S SO HARD TO GET UP AND GO. THEY'RE 16,15, 9 AND 8 AND THEY NEED SEPERATE SPACE ESPECIALLY MY DAUGHTER. I WOULD GLADLY PAY YOU ALL BACK IF I COULD.. THIS BY FAR IS THE HARDEST THING FOR ME AND I'VE BEEN THROUGH IT, I KNOW SOME MAY THINK OH SHE BEGGING AND OTHERS WHO KNOW THE REAL KNOW IT TOOK ALOT FOR ME TO DO THIS. AT THE END OF THE DAY I CAN'T FEAR WHAT PEOPLE WILL SAY OR THINK ABOUT ME AT THIS TIME. I DO HOWEVER DON'T WANT IT TO BECOME A MEDIA THING. REGARDLESS OF WHAT HAPPENS I KNOW WE WILL OVER COME THIS TOO. I WILL CONTINUE TO FIGHT THE FIGHT. I THANK YOU IN ADVANCE  #BROKEN #PAINED #Survivor #innocence #itsnotok #FIXITJESUS #HEALING #THERAPY