help a queer, non-binary friend be safe

this is probably the hardest thing I have had to do, but I am out of options and I thank you for even reading this if you do. for the last year i’ve been living in a shelter after i was kicked out of a family members house. I felt like a huge burden, I still do, but I naively thought my family would give me the space and time to save money and get to where I needed to be, not put me in harms way. I highly doubt that they knew the gravity of their decision. now I want to be very clear, I still very much love them and do not blame them for anything that has happened to me since i’ve been in this shelter. that’s just not the heart that I have and if you are reading this i am so grateful to you for allowing me to stay with you for the couple of months that you did. the memories i made with you in that home has gotten me through the roughest nights here in this shelter. it also saved me from being in this shelter right out of college. i’m swallowing a lot of pride by doing this, I don’t feel safe here. the men that i live with are addicted to drugs and leave their paraphernalia around, fight with each other constantly, and invite strangers into the space. I can barely focus on my school work let alone finding a safe place to live. yesterday my room was vandalized and robbed. they took my laptop, speaker and nintendo switch. the program i’m in has not helped me find an apartment nor vouch for me as I have little to no credit to be approved for an apartment on my own. i’m looking for work as well but things are looking bleak with my laptop being gone, it’s harder for me to apply to jobs. i’m currently putting myself through cosmetology school and I love every minute of it. this is what I was meant to do and i’m good at making people feel and look confident and beautiful. something the world hasn’t been kind enough to give to me. the money I saved from my last job has run out. it has come to the point where I barely have enough to eat. even if you do not have the funds to donate, please share this to someone who might. money would go towards food, school, and deposit for an apartment/safe room while I find a job to support myself. links to good programs that will help femme queer people like me would also be greatly appreciated! I have never been more scared in my entire life. I have put up a good front with pretty pictures on instagram, even deluding the closest of friends to thinking i’m okay because I so wanted to be. I love smiling and making everyone around me feel like their best self so I thought being vulnerable and sad for a very good reason would make me less of a positive/loving/good person. the shame and guilt I feel right now clouds anything good I have going for myself. however, I have to know my unlucky circumstances do not define me. your prayers and kind thoughts will also help me not feel alone in this. thank you for taking the time to read this. I greatly appreciate and love you for it.