Aaron's Back On Track fund

Hello,

My name is Aaron, I'm 35 years old and i'm from East Northport, New York. I was born and raised in a poor family, my grandmother practically raised my two brothers and myself the best she could. My father was constantly in and out of prison and my mother pretty much wanted nothing to do with us and let us do whatever we wanted. Addiction runs deep in my family and eventually made its way to me and both of my brothers. I dropped out of high school and started using heroin from age 20 to 29. within that time frame i lost the little i had including most of my friends and the few family members i was close to all abandon me. I was homeless, i stole, lied, cheated and more.


I managed to get myself clean in 2012 and have been off drugs for six years now but i have lost so much time to addiction that i never got an education or learned a trade. I had a job Painting when i quit drugs and have been doing it right up till this winter, the business went under and i'm looking for new work but i have been having a hard time finding anything, and now i'm in danger of losing the room i rent and don't have anyone i can turn to in these tough times to ask for a hand.


I know this is ridiculous and has pretty much no shot in the world of working but i'm trying to raise money to get my bills paid while i look for work. I set the goal at $1000 which would be the bare minimum to keep me living in the room i rent.


I have been a gamer my whole life and it's the one and only hobby i have and it was responsible for helping me finally quit drugs for good. I had saved most of my games as a kid and eventually had a nice sized collection, unfortunetly i ended up selling just about everything i owned for drugs including my video games.

Since being clean i have bought a bunch of my games back and i swore i would never sell any of them again. But here i am, putting my games on craigslist and letsgo and it breaks my heart to do this. I don't really own any expensive games so for me to get a significant chunk of my bills paid i would have to sell a significant chunk of my collection.

If you ever wanted to see a grown man cry then you should see me putting my games up for sale. I really hope i don't have to sell them all and that is one of the reasons why i'm desperate enough to start this gofundme, i don't want to  loose the thing that helped me through my toughest time in life. 


I spend a lot of my spare time helping other people with drug addiction problems, i know how hard it can be to deal with an addiction espcially without a close support group around you.  i try not to ask anyone for handouts because i know how off putting that can be, so it's hard for me to even write this because i don't want anyone to read it and think about me in a negative way. I have spent the last 6 years trying to prove myself to people that i'm able to stand on my own two feet and being in the situation i'm in now feels like i really haven't made much of an improvement since i quit drugs.


The picture i'm using is me as a kid. It's one of the times the cops found me outside getting into trouble and they tried to scare some sense into me. I wish it would have worked, then i wouldn't be in the spot i am today.


I would like to thank anyone who reads this, my internet is gonna go out soon because that's another bill that's over due but i will use my phone to check up on it when i can find a wifi connection. If you happen to have an issue with drug addiction and have no one to talk to then feel free to send me a message.

I know how alone it can feel when dealing with addiction so even if your broke like me but want someone to talk with please reach out. 

Thanks again and  i hope all of you have a great day!