After Monday's events, I am still spinning. Trying to sort through my emotions as best I can. Yesterday we had a little clarity and this has given me a chance to rest and actually process things. Indigo had an extremely rough past two days. I cannot tell you how many labs and cultures were done. I held my tiny 5 pound baby's head and let her suck on my hand to comfort her while she had a spinal tap done. By yesterday afternoon, Indie was exhausted. She had already been tested for influenza upon return to the NICU but for some reason, the doctor just wasn't satisfied and swabbed her again yesterday. It came back positive. While I'm relieved that it isn't something more serious, the flu is not joke for a premature infant. She is eating better today, and not requiring as much to sustain her, but there is no way to treat her. She simply has to let it run course. Her vitals are so much better and though her saturation levels and heart rate have improved, I know that she is miserable. Right now I am the only one allowed to visit her, and when I do, it's with a protective gown, gloves and a mask. I must admit that I was a little heartbroken last night when I decided to come home and could not give my girl a kiss or touch her little head without a barrier of plastic and surgical cloth. -BUT we have insight now, and a have had a never ending support system from all of you. Your comforting words, offers for assistance and the flood of donations to her GoFund account have uplifted us. Although Christmas is almost here and she may not be home for it, we are experiencing it, firsthand, the way it was meant to be celebrated. Goodwill, Hope, Faith and Love.... Please keep that in mind this week. I hope you are all as truly blessed as we have been. God is so good. Especially to this family.
All my friends and family...if you have a little to spare, please consider giving a donation to this family. They are wonderful people, just trying to get their precious daughter healthy enough to come home. Praying for baby Indigo and the rest of the family. Love ya bunches, Joe and Anita