Knock Greg Hess' Teeth Out!

It's been a rough couple decades for me. I'm sure most of you are aware? I am ashamed to admit to at least a quarter of a century full of bad choices, self destruction, ignorant neglect & blatant disregard for my own health & safety. In all actuality I spent most of my time on this planet slowly killing myself. Man. I'm glad that shit has passed! I am grateful for all those hard won lessons though, and I'm actually quite proud of the man I have been so slow in becoming, the man I am today.

March 18th 2018 will mark 2 years of continuous sobriety for me. Not a drink or drug in 24 months and it wasn't even that difficult. I woke up. That is all. Let me tell you! I cannot say that I did anything personally to ignite the spark of clarity that set this life of mine ablaze with love and light. But I am so grateful, that even after being blind and in such miserable darkness for so long....I am still able to shine....even just a little.

Truth told, things are pretty good these days. I have had some wonderful people in my corner. Some have been there forever. Some I've nearly just met. But I count more of the people in my world today as my family than I would as friends. There is an abundance of both however and I cannot recall any enemies to speak of. So, I must be doing okay at this human "being" business. These past 2 years I've dealt with plenty of old demons and dismissed em' all as they arose. Some battles more difficult as others, but such is life. Unfortunatley for me however, there are certain wages of my past sins that I cannot just beat down with some clear thinking, shoulder shruggs & a disapproving giggle.

My teeth are absolutley fucked. C'mon. You've noticed....lol. They certainly aren't getting any better & although I am showing a certain amount of grace on the daily, the pain is really starting to wear at me. Keep in mind now, I aint takin no goddamned painkillers! I've got myself in a hell of a spot now huh? I have been putting this off for so long, with the hopes that sometime soon my finances would improve to the point that getting them fixed would just be an easy thing. I work for what I need goddamnit! Always have. It would appear however that my sudden sobriety and spiritual awakening have left me very unconcerned with money as a whole. Fuck man, I'm sincerely happy to just be alive. If I'm broke, it's cool with me. I may be broke BUT I'm breathing. I am actually LIVING & currently that seems to be enough. These days I am truly thankful and content with a minimalistic life and as a result I don't tend to worry about making large amounts of cash. Which brings me here.

I was seriously on the fence about creating a GoFundMe for this bullshit. I mean honestly....why would I ask anyone else for help cleaning up a mess I so clearly made myself? I brought the thought up a couple of times & everyone seemed supportive,
"That's a great idea Greg."
"I really think you should."
"Why not?".
But still, I should handle my own damned business right?! Then a brother of mine says....
"Greg, sometimes people need help with things, that's okay. That's what we are here for."
Huh?! I thought about that for a week or so & I realized that I never would've gotten HERE without help. Help from other people?! Yeah. I would've been long gone a long time ago without some of y'all. I'm sure there are people out there that would be worse off without me doing for them. Its not a bad thing to lean on your people. Is it now?

So...fuck foolish pride. To hell with my hardass "I'll handle it" bravado. That kind of shit kept me sick for a long time! Nothing good ever came from me going it alone. In fact, most of the damage was caused that way. You know what guys? I need a hand. If some of ya can throw a little coin in maybe I can get the rest of these fuggin chiclettes pulled & some dentures? I really do hate to ask, but I'm just sick of hurting, I wanna eat like a normal person again & to be honest....it's time to take care of this last detrimental remnant of my rocky past. I just wanna move forward smiling....I mean.... I'm gunna do that anyway, but I'd rather be flashin some painless pearly whites while I'm at it!

Idk if $2000 is gunna be enough to get all the work done that I need to. But it will sure get me closer than I am right now.

Thanks for everything guys.
All the love to all y'all.